To cut a long (and rather confusing) story short, I have autism. I stay in a flat where there's an office next door to me and I was lied to before about my key worker, Sara, and no doubt over another woman I worked with as well. I'll briefly summarize both ladies up so you can understand my former relationship with both of them:
Joanna:
This lady supported me for a few years starting in 2011 and I asked her out in 2013 around the time I split away from a woman who was basically a fake GF (a shrew of a woman called Laura). Joanna was with me one time Laura was hanging out with me.
It ain't as bad as it sounds, but her bosses made a 'mountain out of a molehill' regarding that, due to the boundaries being crossed. I however got a shift with her again in the summer of last year. Just one, because we were around plenty of people that day, no doubt. Then I was promised more shifts by this Andrew guy, who's a senior but clearly a bit of a snake too. He probably lied, however. He's just "that type" in my eyes.
Because I got annoyed from being stressed out and I posted about her online via Facebook, I got told I could no longer work with her. I moaned about that for long enough, as I missed her a lot.
Sara:
There's way too much confusing drama to delve into with Sara. But Sara found out I liked her because a male worker who I played snooker with a lot just blabbed about me using advice forums to talk about the feelings I had developed for her. Then she changed after I sent her a text message calling her petal, because she was finally revealing she knew I liked her. Seriously!
She was moody and distant afterwards, which upset me. Eventually, we stopped having shifts altogether back in February there, because she was dropped from my support team without anybody truthfully informing me about this. Andrew acted sweet towards me within that time we were apart, making out she was STILL my key worker and just being unusually friendly, by wanting catch-up time and I could sense something wasn't right. My mother agreed with me.
After I finally found out Sara was gone as my key worker officially, I got cold treatment from her when I seen her around and I was left to feel highly depressed and frustrated, to the point of being abusive to staff members that had never previously hurt me and then I was looking up Joanna's address, resulting in her turning against me too.
Sara was supposedly scared of me too and quit sleeping over at my flat, yet I'd done nothing to her and she would just ignore me. She even ran away in the street one time and got into a taxi.
Eventually in July, I acted angry and got arrested on three separate occasions (once near to Joanna's home) until I was remanded in jail. I'd never been in jail before, but I feel hurt that I ended up in prison over the very women I loved as my support workers. After 2 weeks, I got out, but was arrested again a few days later for sending suicide notes, after I got a non harassment order, because by contacting them, even to simply say goodbye, I violated that release term. I was lucky to be bailed a few days ago, because I obviously may have ended up being remanded for a longer period of time.
My mother knows the staff feel guilty for what they did. A senior went to court to hear my outcomes. She probably just wanted to be snoopy, as they are like bees to honey when it comes to my affairs. They've offered me extra support too and admitted lying to me did not help matters. I cannot go back to my flat for now, due to my bail terms. Yet it is annoying having no money, as that ended when I went to jail.
My court date is 19 September. And I miss Sara and Joanna like mad. The higher-ups just do not want me to get attached to my support workers because it's not good for a professional relationship.
What should I do next?
Joanna:
This lady supported me for a few years starting in 2011 and I asked her out in 2013 around the time I split away from a woman who was basically a fake GF (a shrew of a woman called Laura). Joanna was with me one time Laura was hanging out with me.
It ain't as bad as it sounds, but her bosses made a 'mountain out of a molehill' regarding that, due to the boundaries being crossed. I however got a shift with her again in the summer of last year. Just one, because we were around plenty of people that day, no doubt. Then I was promised more shifts by this Andrew guy, who's a senior but clearly a bit of a snake too. He probably lied, however. He's just "that type" in my eyes.
Because I got annoyed from being stressed out and I posted about her online via Facebook, I got told I could no longer work with her. I moaned about that for long enough, as I missed her a lot.
Sara:
There's way too much confusing drama to delve into with Sara. But Sara found out I liked her because a male worker who I played snooker with a lot just blabbed about me using advice forums to talk about the feelings I had developed for her. Then she changed after I sent her a text message calling her petal, because she was finally revealing she knew I liked her. Seriously!
She was moody and distant afterwards, which upset me. Eventually, we stopped having shifts altogether back in February there, because she was dropped from my support team without anybody truthfully informing me about this. Andrew acted sweet towards me within that time we were apart, making out she was STILL my key worker and just being unusually friendly, by wanting catch-up time and I could sense something wasn't right. My mother agreed with me.
After I finally found out Sara was gone as my key worker officially, I got cold treatment from her when I seen her around and I was left to feel highly depressed and frustrated, to the point of being abusive to staff members that had never previously hurt me and then I was looking up Joanna's address, resulting in her turning against me too.
Sara was supposedly scared of me too and quit sleeping over at my flat, yet I'd done nothing to her and she would just ignore me. She even ran away in the street one time and got into a taxi.
Eventually in July, I acted angry and got arrested on three separate occasions (once near to Joanna's home) until I was remanded in jail. I'd never been in jail before, but I feel hurt that I ended up in prison over the very women I loved as my support workers. After 2 weeks, I got out, but was arrested again a few days later for sending suicide notes, after I got a non harassment order, because by contacting them, even to simply say goodbye, I violated that release term. I was lucky to be bailed a few days ago, because I obviously may have ended up being remanded for a longer period of time.
My mother knows the staff feel guilty for what they did. A senior went to court to hear my outcomes. She probably just wanted to be snoopy, as they are like bees to honey when it comes to my affairs. They've offered me extra support too and admitted lying to me did not help matters. I cannot go back to my flat for now, due to my bail terms. Yet it is annoying having no money, as that ended when I went to jail.
My court date is 19 September. And I miss Sara and Joanna like mad. The higher-ups just do not want me to get attached to my support workers because it's not good for a professional relationship.
What should I do next?
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