Feeling justified but no one to talk to

Hi all, Been married nearly 13 years, 2 kids (9 & 7 years old), eldest has high functioning autism. I am a recovering alcoholic with almost 7 months up. Wife gave up her job to be a full time mother 9 years ago. So where to begin...for years now we have been drifting apart. We are close but more like best friends than husband and wife. She has no sex drive, mine is high. Sex maybe once a month for the past 4 years, maybe more. She drinks almost daily and neglects everything else. The kids are left to their own devices while she drinks the night away. She says she wants to go back to work, has great plans but nothing ever gets done. Like for at least 3 years. I have lost all respect for this woman. I no longer care about sex with her, Redtube is my friend. I have been very unhappy, on medication now and the kids can tell. I am on the verge of leaving, finding a place nearby so that I can see the kids as much as possible and getting on with my life. Am I going insane or does this marriage sound like a joke to others? I have no one to talk to about this so am reaching out to you all... Thanks.

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