| I feel like he plays games. I have talked to him for years about my disastisfaction with our sex life. It always ends with him first blaming me in whatever fashion and swearing he wants to do it 'all the time' and then him crying and promise to do better. It is almost easier for me to just go without then flip the switch and nothing for months. Can't even remember how long it has been (6 months?) I would like a few times a week but asked him if we could even make sure to do it just once per weekend or twice a month. Weekend comes, I look forward to it, Friday night goes no big deal, Saturday it is early and then it gets later and later, I start feeling worse knowing once again it isn't going to happen as he divulges the priorites in front of me (tv and food-he is morbidly obese) and then it is snoring I hear (which sounds like laughter to me-haha, I'm sleeping like a baby and you are alone and miserable). I am so tired of being lied to and betrayed and it makes me look at him with less respect as a man that he isn't taking care of business at home. He is constantly telling me how beautiful I am, how much he loves me, calling me sexy, wanting to hold hands and I am getting to where I don't even like it . That stuff can be nice but I'm not 13 and want an ongoing full relationship not just the mushy stuff. I know that might sound horrible to some. I resent that he has stolen a healthy active love life from me, why even get married if you aren't going to give your partner that. Then when I am up half the night and can't sleep he asks all concerned why were you up like he just wants me to say it again, I don't even want to give him the satisfaction of another sex conversation as it is demoralizing and I am tired of the broken promises. | |||
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