This weekend, my sister had surgery for an umbilical hernia, which is unusual for someone who is not overweight. For a 36 yr old, her health is poor, primarily due to drug use. She has no teeth, lost a lot of weight, and regularly goes to the er for anything from body sores to accidents like a twisted ankle.
I don't really expect her to live another 5 years. My parents have intimated that they fear the same. So, this morning I found myself imagining myself at her funeral and what I would say as her eulogy.
Does that sound messed up? My sister and I were never close, especially when her drug use escalated. I would refuse to see/talk to her bc I could never trust she'd be sober. She did make it over for xmas this yr tho. Anyway, now I just mostly feel sad for her... she never got that happiness is from within.
I'm not sure if its healthy to think this way or not.
I don't really expect her to live another 5 years. My parents have intimated that they fear the same. So, this morning I found myself imagining myself at her funeral and what I would say as her eulogy.
Does that sound messed up? My sister and I were never close, especially when her drug use escalated. I would refuse to see/talk to her bc I could never trust she'd be sober. She did make it over for xmas this yr tho. Anyway, now I just mostly feel sad for her... she never got that happiness is from within.
I'm not sure if its healthy to think this way or not.
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