So I'm a student at uni at the moment, I'm living in halls, this is my first year and I'm 20 years old. Everyone else in the flat I'm living in (there's 4 of us) are in relationships, I'm the only single one. This is embarrassing to admit but I'm also a virgin. I've been in many situations where I could have had sex but I chose not too, I only want to have sex with someone if I'm attracted to them and (I thought) if I'm in a relationship with them. Also I can be quite a quiet person, especially around men.
There is so much partying going on at uni, and so many good looking lads, and I have been getting alot of attention from them (not to sound like i'm bragging). It's a bit frustrating when all your flatmates are in relationships and you're the only single one..especially when there's so many good looking male students about.
So anyway, yesterday evening, one of my flatmates (who's also 20, as are his friends) brought over two of his friends from home (he's from a town about 30 miles away from the uni, my uni is in the north of England btw) both of these lads where really good looking and single, and my age (infact they where a few months older than me), most of the guys here are 18/19 and I'm like one of the few 20 year olds. So we all got completely shattered with alcohol as we where all going out to a club in town, we where all taking shots and we where all really drunk.
By the time we got to the club, me and one of the lads had starting dancing together/kissing/bumping and grinding etc. So we where touching each other a lot and being pretty intimate. When we got back from the club, he suggested we get into bed, and to be honest, I didn't mind because I've felt (and I know this will sound weird) really sexually frustrated, there are so many good looking men here, and I've come to realise I'll only be young once and I don't want to waste opportunities to have a good time, especially as uni does go by so quickly and everyone says it's the best time of your life. So I was completely okay with getting into bed with him. But all my flat mates (who where also all completely drunk) heard us saying we where going to bed. Anyway, to cut a long story short, we kissed and he ended up (and I know this is gross and probably too much information) fingering me for a bit, before I decided I actually didn 't want to have sex that night and didn't feel very comfortable with the idea of it. So I told him and he said that's fine. I was soo drunk at this stage, that i just went straight to bed. This lad is really good friends with one of my flatmates, they've known each other for 9 years (since school) so I'm guessing he probably told him we got pretty intimate. Today was soooo awkward, being around my flatmates, everyone got out of bed really late and I was only with them for about half an hour before they disappeared off to bed. They all said hello to me and smiled to me when they saw me..so no ones been rude to me or anything..I just feel pretty awkward now, especially around the boys because I don't want them to think that this is something which I regularly do at home (because I don't). I know how men can be towards women they percieve as being 'easy' or 'loose' or whatever, and I don't really see myself as being that way, so it's odd coming here and feeling like people migh t view you completely differently to how they do back home. Also, like about a week ago, we all went out to the same club, but this time with 3 of the people in the flat below us, one of the guys was single, and we ended up bumping and grinding on the dance floor (I was really, really drunk) and I was touching him a lot. Then I ended up going to the toilet, and just passing out in the loo!! Then at about 4am the club bouncers woke me up and told me the club was closed now and that I had to leave. Everyone else had obviously left by this point hours ago, so when I got back to the flat (alone) everyone was in their rooms. They had been looking for me, but my flatmate told me they had assumed I'd probably 'pulled' (gone off with some guy). I told her I passed out in the club, but I don't know if all of them believe me and maybe think I went off with some guy and had a one night stand. So now my flatmates probably think I've had two one night stands within the space of a month. Which I haven't! I just feel really awkward about it all..what are your opinions?
There is so much partying going on at uni, and so many good looking lads, and I have been getting alot of attention from them (not to sound like i'm bragging). It's a bit frustrating when all your flatmates are in relationships and you're the only single one..especially when there's so many good looking male students about.
So anyway, yesterday evening, one of my flatmates (who's also 20, as are his friends) brought over two of his friends from home (he's from a town about 30 miles away from the uni, my uni is in the north of England btw) both of these lads where really good looking and single, and my age (infact they where a few months older than me), most of the guys here are 18/19 and I'm like one of the few 20 year olds. So we all got completely shattered with alcohol as we where all going out to a club in town, we where all taking shots and we where all really drunk.
By the time we got to the club, me and one of the lads had starting dancing together/kissing/bumping and grinding etc. So we where touching each other a lot and being pretty intimate. When we got back from the club, he suggested we get into bed, and to be honest, I didn't mind because I've felt (and I know this will sound weird) really sexually frustrated, there are so many good looking men here, and I've come to realise I'll only be young once and I don't want to waste opportunities to have a good time, especially as uni does go by so quickly and everyone says it's the best time of your life. So I was completely okay with getting into bed with him. But all my flat mates (who where also all completely drunk) heard us saying we where going to bed. Anyway, to cut a long story short, we kissed and he ended up (and I know this is gross and probably too much information) fingering me for a bit, before I decided I actually didn 't want to have sex that night and didn't feel very comfortable with the idea of it. So I told him and he said that's fine. I was soo drunk at this stage, that i just went straight to bed. This lad is really good friends with one of my flatmates, they've known each other for 9 years (since school) so I'm guessing he probably told him we got pretty intimate. Today was soooo awkward, being around my flatmates, everyone got out of bed really late and I was only with them for about half an hour before they disappeared off to bed. They all said hello to me and smiled to me when they saw me..so no ones been rude to me or anything..I just feel pretty awkward now, especially around the boys because I don't want them to think that this is something which I regularly do at home (because I don't). I know how men can be towards women they percieve as being 'easy' or 'loose' or whatever, and I don't really see myself as being that way, so it's odd coming here and feeling like people migh t view you completely differently to how they do back home. Also, like about a week ago, we all went out to the same club, but this time with 3 of the people in the flat below us, one of the guys was single, and we ended up bumping and grinding on the dance floor (I was really, really drunk) and I was touching him a lot. Then I ended up going to the toilet, and just passing out in the loo!! Then at about 4am the club bouncers woke me up and told me the club was closed now and that I had to leave. Everyone else had obviously left by this point hours ago, so when I got back to the flat (alone) everyone was in their rooms. They had been looking for me, but my flatmate told me they had assumed I'd probably 'pulled' (gone off with some guy). I told her I passed out in the club, but I don't know if all of them believe me and maybe think I went off with some guy and had a one night stand. So now my flatmates probably think I've had two one night stands within the space of a month. Which I haven't! I just feel really awkward about it all..what are your opinions?
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