You may have seen me post a few threads about this guy but I'm in agony trying to figure out what to do.
Just this Wednesday I texted this guy Ive been on/off with since October asking for a lift to the train station. He quite happily gave me one, but we spent 3 hours together (the drive there is less than 10 minutes), I missed 6 trains just being with him because I prioritise him over everything.
He has repeatedly said that he doesn't want a relationship yet he acts like he does.
We are always cuddled up, kissing, he says cute things, he he'll stop kissing me just to stare at me in they eyes, he'll kiss me on the forehead, and so much more. I love being with him in person, and this Wednesday gone by he finally opened up about his past, and his dad and mum and he hasn't told anyone that (except his ex who he left me twice for, but it is all gone and forgotten) He will even drive an hour to come see me to take me to maccies late at night to drop me off home an hour later then go for an hours drive back. He pays and everything. And hes always asking to see me, I just don't have a lot of time to see him because of exams.
But then I'll find out hes more than happy to chat up girls on tinder, girls I know but he doesn't know I know. Ive spoken to him about this and he just screenshotted his matches to me, as if I was delusional. And we've argued about other girls before and hes cut them off but then he just finds new girls to speak to and I don't know what to do. I cant pick up on every girl he speaks to because not only does it make me seem crazy (I probably am ngl) but its not my place to say anything either because we aren't actually together. But he snapchatted me last weekend and in the background was pink curtains and I am certain he was in a girls room. (due to circumstances I can not be bothered explaining, I know he would not be at any girls house as a friend)
And yesterday I deliberately stayed in (we are both the type to go out drinking every weekend and pull people) because I realised I don't want to be with anyone else but him, and he went out with his friends. Although he didn't pull anyone, he kept winking at one of the girls I know (who begged my source not to tell me so people know about me and him, its not secretive at all) and got his mate to chat her up for him so no one could feed back to me that he was chatting girls up
So he's sneaky and I know hes sneaky, and he enjoys his freedom which is why I'm trying to let him have it but I don't know what to do. He goes to the UK in a week (he is in the army and so is my dad, so we are based abroad) and wont be back until my exams have finished, so maybe it will get better when I have more time for him?
But what am I to him? Am I a toy (I still have not slept with him and refuse to until I know it will mean something to the both of us) or does he have feelings for me? He had a messy breakup with his ex (because of me I guess, although I was not directly involved) so maybe his head is messed up? I don't know, I need help.
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