My wife is in Puerto Rico to pay her final respects to her grandparents. I can't stop thinking about how much I want her here with me. Something within me has changed and I think it has to do with the therapy and homework assignments I've done related to my DBT, but...I want her home.
I'm changing I think. And I'm "thinking" differently too. I'm pausing and questioning myself. Many of you know what I've done to betray my wife. I've made a promise to her and I am living it...and for the first time in my life...All I can think about is wanting my partner at my side.
Some of you may not understand why I'm posting this, but this is our first time apart since D-Day back in December. I know she has concerns. I have done my level best to alleviate/mitigate said concerns...but they're still going to be there, that much I know. When I saw her off at the airport, we kissed and told each other goodbye but not without a "While the cat's away, the mice will play?" question from her...to which I replied with a gentle kiss and smile...
"Not this time baby. I'm going to miss you terribly. Come home to me just as soon as you can darlin."
While wiping the tears from my eyes.
I feel differently this time and I'm not sure it is a result of the DBT therapy I'm in, but that is the only answer I can come up with because I'm thinking about "stuff" differently. I'm processing "things" differently...and all I want is her back home.
I wish I could hold her right now, look into her eyes, take her hand and put it to my chest, and tell her..."I belong to you and this heart beats for you." cuz that is how I feel...right now.
Peace my friends...:)
I'm changing I think. And I'm "thinking" differently too. I'm pausing and questioning myself. Many of you know what I've done to betray my wife. I've made a promise to her and I am living it...and for the first time in my life...All I can think about is wanting my partner at my side.
Some of you may not understand why I'm posting this, but this is our first time apart since D-Day back in December. I know she has concerns. I have done my level best to alleviate/mitigate said concerns...but they're still going to be there, that much I know. When I saw her off at the airport, we kissed and told each other goodbye but not without a "While the cat's away, the mice will play?" question from her...to which I replied with a gentle kiss and smile...
"Not this time baby. I'm going to miss you terribly. Come home to me just as soon as you can darlin."
While wiping the tears from my eyes.
I feel differently this time and I'm not sure it is a result of the DBT therapy I'm in, but that is the only answer I can come up with because I'm thinking about "stuff" differently. I'm processing "things" differently...and all I want is her back home.
I wish I could hold her right now, look into her eyes, take her hand and put it to my chest, and tell her..."I belong to you and this heart beats for you." cuz that is how I feel...right now.
Peace my friends...:)
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