I have been married for four years and with my wife for six years. Since about our second anniversary I have felt this emptiness inside. I don't understand because my wife is everything I wanted with a spouse. She is loving, compassionate, and loyal. I don't think that I could ask for better traits in a spouse. However, I feel back and fourth that i just don't love her like a husband should. I find myself backing out of affection and not being sexually or emotionally attracted to her like I was in the early years. We have talked several times about how I feel but I don't know what to do. I don't want to just keep hurting her, but at the same time I can't control how I feel. I feel like I love her like a father loves his children but not as a husband loves his wife. My behavior shows too. I feel I have changed a lot from six years ago and we want very different things in life. I don't want to leave my wife who depends on me to be the husband she married an d kick her to the curb like she is nobody but i don't want to live my life feeling like I do all the time. We married when we were 19 and both had never been with anyone else sexually. I am finding myself more and more detached every day. Every time I think I might go through with it I see how sad she is and like a father to his child, I want to give her what she wants to make her happy again. Is my lifetime of happiness worth sacrificing for another? And would I even be happy divorcing my wife? I have not cheated or anything and neither has she. I just don't know what to do. She has built her entire life around me and her future as well. Can I really rip it away from under her for my own selfish adventure for happiness?
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