My wife is incapable of admitting she made a mistake, or apologizing for anything, no matter how minute. She's expert at turning everything around to be "my fault". Changing the subject, bringing up my past faults, etc, yelling, or painting herself the victim. All of her faults are really because of me she says. I try to always make respectful 'complaints' to her, not 'criticisms' but it doesn't seem to make any difference. She flies off the handle yelling at me for the smallest things.
Frankly, I have no interest in sex with such a person. That being the main reason we have no kids. I have more intimacy with my coworkers than her because at least they don't yell at me when I share something personal. There are good times in between the fights, but overall, I can't share things with her because I never know what will set her off. I can't trust her to accept me if I share personal things with her. It has never been successful. I long to go to work because I have more peace there. I start feeling anxiety as quitting time nears.
I need help because I can't seem to get away. I care for her, but I can't live with her NPD, OCD, phobias and issues. I have tried too hard to make her happy and only made myself miserable in the process. Giving up friendships, family, hobbies, interests to devote myself one hundred percent to her, but it is never enough. I feel trapped because her raging has a control over me. I fear it. I want to avoid it all costs because it feels so bad, but leaving seems even more scary. Still love her a lot, but tired of walking on egg shells. I feel my health deteriorating from the constant stress. What the heck am I doing? How did I get into this mess?
Frankly, I have no interest in sex with such a person. That being the main reason we have no kids. I have more intimacy with my coworkers than her because at least they don't yell at me when I share something personal. There are good times in between the fights, but overall, I can't share things with her because I never know what will set her off. I can't trust her to accept me if I share personal things with her. It has never been successful. I long to go to work because I have more peace there. I start feeling anxiety as quitting time nears.
I need help because I can't seem to get away. I care for her, but I can't live with her NPD, OCD, phobias and issues. I have tried too hard to make her happy and only made myself miserable in the process. Giving up friendships, family, hobbies, interests to devote myself one hundred percent to her, but it is never enough. I feel trapped because her raging has a control over me. I fear it. I want to avoid it all costs because it feels so bad, but leaving seems even more scary. Still love her a lot, but tired of walking on egg shells. I feel my health deteriorating from the constant stress. What the heck am I doing? How did I get into this mess?
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