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ONE year later and I am more depressed

My wife had a EA not physical supposedly with her married bald fat boss and Dday was a little over a year ago. Trying to R. I have known her 20 years since she was 17, married 15 years with 2 kids.
I am having major issues and time is not doing much. I walk around like a zombie pretending holding hands, she sits next to me cuddling watching TV but all romantic love is just gone out of me. I'm just depressed all the time. Went to C and I still feel the same. I will think I am over everything and everything is fine and then all of a sudden BANG I am in mental hell OCD over everything and looking for clues to what really is real and what she is lying about.
What I see as obsessive nature of the EA I really can't deal with it and over what a loser scumbag that wanted ass that didn't even do anything romantic for her or really work it. All he did was talk about his problems with her.
He sent her a recipie and she baked the guy cookies 9 days before Christmas.
She would talk to him at work any chance she could and stayed 30 minutes late each night to talk.
She bought special low cut shirts and bras at the end to help seduce him. 15 years with me and she walked around in over sized sweat pants, large white t shirts and a pony tail. This guy her hair was all done nails painted hot pink, hot pink or red lipstick.
On d day she said if she had slept with him she would of went with him
A month before d day she was sleeping on the coach each nite.
I find out just before d day it was going to go physical and she was in his office doing oral on a blow pop as a little show for him and pulling her tops down to show more cleavage. This revelation came out last week.
She bought the guy a b day present 6 months before his b day just because he mentioned he liked something.
She bought and listened to that Selena Gomez song come and get it and thought of him.
I blew this thing all up. Knocked her out of the fog when I emailed the dude and he backed down in two seconds. She say him as a ***** at this point and realized he didn't real care about her. Notified his wife via letter to her at work. The wife left work 5 months later. BUT I can't take the obsessive nature of what she was feeling. Its like for this guy she wanted to act like a hot woman and all these years with me she was blah. She was going to throw away her marriage, our 20 year relationship, blow up a family with 2 small kids 8 and 9 years old over what. Plus in her fantasy land she was going to use protection or birth control she didn't care if she got pregnant. Now I am living with this ***** and she is all oh I was so wrong, oh I love you so much, you're my life. When she calls me sweetie or love it feels like a drill entering my head. I just think ****ing liar and am waiting for the next freak obsession.

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