I just realised how shallow I am...
Not even that good looking either, so this is ****ing stupid
For example, an overweight person walks by and I feel disgusted and, looking back, I treat them differently to a thin person. I want to end the conversation even if they're actually, objectively speaking, nice people. I just have a 'fattie bum bum' track running in my mind, it's disgusting. I've tried to change my thinking for months but it's not easy at all - maybe I am doing something wrong?
Ever since I analysed facial aesthetics, I have also become an even shallower person. When I see a 'Golden ratio face' individual, I fancy them and treat them like a gem. If I see someone who may treat me really well, but isn't really facially blessed, then I subconsciously - especially in the past - act with them like they are my pet and 'lucky' to speak to me, like I am just giving this 'ugly person' "charity" by speaking to them. I also have '****ing minger, ugly' track running in my stupid mind. Tried to change, now a little better but still a shallow ass.
Tbh I am not that good looking either, just a deluded bum from what I've seen. I hate not being able to find anyone less than model faces attractive.
Wtf to do?
Put the internet to work for you.
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