My husband and I met during high school about 6 years ago. He was always the one guy I wanted and thought I could never have. And it stayed like that for years. It wasnt until my senior year that I really saw that we had a chance. He was already in the military when we started dating and 2 months in we found out that he was going to be deploying. I was so upset when I found out but I knew that we could get through it. We had an amazing time when he could come home on leave which was literally whenever he had the chance.When he finally left it was definitely hard. I cried myself to sleep plenty of times in fear that I would wake up to bad news. A couple months into his deployment we made the huge decision that we wanted to get married. If we could get through a deployment we could get through anything. And we stayed so strong all through those grueling 8 months. We were honestly perfect.Those 8 months were hard but in that moment of seeing him walk toward me after all of that anticipation and feeling like I wouldnt ever touch, kiss, or even smell him again. Its indescribable. Well, 11 days after he returned was our big day. We were getting married. The wedding was everything I had hoped for. A room full of people and still it felt like we were alone.*It wasnt until I moved out here that things started to change. It felt like he was being very detached. He would be on his computer from the time we woke up to the time we went to sleep. And it drove me crazy. BUT, it was manageable. If that was all we ever fought about I was okay with that. But then he stopped hugging me, stopped holding my hand stopped kissing me, and sex was happening less often as time went by.*Well then the big decison came. He wanted a motorcycle and there was nothing I could do to stop him. When he got it he was never home. He stopped caring about work and cared even kess about how I felt. When I get upset thats me being controlling. When I ask him not to be out all night that's me being his mom and giving him too many rules. In the last month our marriage has been crumbling more and more every day. Then last night he tells me he would be fine if I would give him freedom. If he could invite me out places instead of me assuming that im going. He wants to go out to the beach with all his single friends on the only days I have off and wants to go to techno raves without me. I dont know if I can handle this. I dont know how. He has changed so much and now he wants to just do his own thing. And if I dont learn to accept that I know hes going to leave. Cant lose him... everything I do in life now I do for him. He is my life. I need help. I know I sound pathetic and this post is too long. But if anyone can take the time to give me your imput I would greatly appreciate it.
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