So I've been chatting to this guy online for about 2 months, we got on well at first and i even realised a change in myself. I felt more happy each day because now i had someone to message. I'm more or less a loner in real life, don't get any text messages or phone calls from anyone besides family. So as you can expect when someone gives me the littlest amount of interest or attention it does cheer my day up.
But lately, for the past two weeks i've been feeling down, im unsure whether its actually because of him or if its myself. I feel really alone even when i am talking to him. I feel like what we have is just two strangers chatting to each other, where one is becoming attached or somehow emotionally affected. I think about him everyday, i want to talk to him every minute, i want to see him and have a cuddle for as long as ever. But we all know i cant have that.
This isnt the first time i've felt like this. I have spoken to people before and i have realised every time i start to like someone (not always in the emotional way, more as in a friendly way) they always somehow disappoint me. Perhaps i expect more from them and so when they dont give me what i expected i result in being disappointed.
I think the case of feeling lonely 24/7 really does get in the way of me socialising. I try and go out there making new friends, both online and in person but it always results in me feeling down. Its as though every time i enjoy myself someone in my head has to put me down again and remind me that this happiness is only for the moment, that it doesnt mean anything and that i will always be alone; with no one to talk to.
So i guess what im trying to say here is why am i feeling down all of a sudden? What can i do to not be emotionally affected by a random stranger? How to stop expecting stuff and preventing myself from being disappointed? Do any of you feel lonely too even though you're talking to someone? Do you feel alone anyhow?
Put the internet to work for you.
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