My wife who I will call "booge", has filed a restraining order against me, had me arrested, and is now in a casual and very sexualized long distance sort of relation ship, is now filing for divorce soon. We have two children together, ages 2 and 4, and they are my world, rather my family is my world.
She is filing for divorce after I found out that she had been speaking to a man she met online through a game named Marcel. Marcel is a 25 year old man who is finishing up college. There was an altercation and fight between the two of us (first time in front of the girls) and scared my oldest quite badly when I punched the wall and flipped my recliner chair in anger after I found out she had been cheating on me for weeks emotionally, sexy messages through texts, etc. She was falling for another man, and I had felt replaced. I grabbed her wrist as she had tried to leave with the girls and she later had me arrested for battery. I spent a night in jail and when I was released was served an injunction, stating I could have no contact via third or first party with my wife. In two weeks was a hearing to decide the dresults of that injunction. After an emotional rollercoaster for me which involved calling all her friends and family to "rally support" I found I was alone. I was furt her pushing her away. In the week leading up to this event she had discussed wanting a seperation because she felt lime she needed to be able to stand on her own two feet, prove it to herself she could do it.
Our marriage has never been called stable. I have had (just found out recently) that I have a low-t issue, which was always a point of contention as we fought frequently about how little I wanted to have sex. Let me clairfy, my wife is gorgeous. So attraction was never a problem, and she lives for sex and sexual attention. Red flag number one. We got married mainly because she got pregnant but I soon fell in love with her regardless.
Financially we struggled, and I had a moment with pornography (which she views as cheating) and lied about it also. I later came clean and tried mending my ways but still struggled occasionally. 1.5 years into our marriage we moved to Florida in hopes of greater prospects. We stabled out financially, but never sexually. September of 2013 my mom committed suicide, and that was really the downfall for us. My sex drive STOPPED. Which after a few months of rejection lead her to look elsewhere. She found Marcel to have a great sense of humor, very sexual, and being so far away (North Carolina) there was nothing tying her to him.
So here I am now, finally realizing that it is too late to fix things, madly in love with my wife and want to mend my family. I gave begun running at the gym and sure enough my sex drive returns. Now she is gone.
I told her I will wait patiently even after divorce, as I made life vows to her, and her alone. Still providing to her however I can to make her life easier.
So I ask you. Am I insane...? Is being this far in love, crushed and depressed while thinking about the two of them (shes genually excited about the 'giving him a chance') having phone sex and eventually hooking up. Im so confused.
Kris
She is filing for divorce after I found out that she had been speaking to a man she met online through a game named Marcel. Marcel is a 25 year old man who is finishing up college. There was an altercation and fight between the two of us (first time in front of the girls) and scared my oldest quite badly when I punched the wall and flipped my recliner chair in anger after I found out she had been cheating on me for weeks emotionally, sexy messages through texts, etc. She was falling for another man, and I had felt replaced. I grabbed her wrist as she had tried to leave with the girls and she later had me arrested for battery. I spent a night in jail and when I was released was served an injunction, stating I could have no contact via third or first party with my wife. In two weeks was a hearing to decide the dresults of that injunction. After an emotional rollercoaster for me which involved calling all her friends and family to "rally support" I found I was alone. I was furt her pushing her away. In the week leading up to this event she had discussed wanting a seperation because she felt lime she needed to be able to stand on her own two feet, prove it to herself she could do it.
Our marriage has never been called stable. I have had (just found out recently) that I have a low-t issue, which was always a point of contention as we fought frequently about how little I wanted to have sex. Let me clairfy, my wife is gorgeous. So attraction was never a problem, and she lives for sex and sexual attention. Red flag number one. We got married mainly because she got pregnant but I soon fell in love with her regardless.
Financially we struggled, and I had a moment with pornography (which she views as cheating) and lied about it also. I later came clean and tried mending my ways but still struggled occasionally. 1.5 years into our marriage we moved to Florida in hopes of greater prospects. We stabled out financially, but never sexually. September of 2013 my mom committed suicide, and that was really the downfall for us. My sex drive STOPPED. Which after a few months of rejection lead her to look elsewhere. She found Marcel to have a great sense of humor, very sexual, and being so far away (North Carolina) there was nothing tying her to him.
So here I am now, finally realizing that it is too late to fix things, madly in love with my wife and want to mend my family. I gave begun running at the gym and sure enough my sex drive returns. Now she is gone.
I told her I will wait patiently even after divorce, as I made life vows to her, and her alone. Still providing to her however I can to make her life easier.
So I ask you. Am I insane...? Is being this far in love, crushed and depressed while thinking about the two of them (shes genually excited about the 'giving him a chance') having phone sex and eventually hooking up. Im so confused.
Kris
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