I'm having such a bad day and I just really would like some advice. I am nearly 19 years old and going to university later this year and I just feel so pathetic. I've never a had a job, never had a boyfriend, not started my driving lessons, have no savings and not a penny to my name, no friends. I'm ridiculously shy and I feel like I'll never progress in life and I'll never have a job.
Someone I'm kind of friends with is really shy too but she managed to find a job and now has loads of savings. Whereas the big baby over here is stuck at home all day with no job. I feel like such a failure and there is no way I'm cut out to live in this World.
I went to a job interview last November and just thinking about it is making me cry. I tried my best to sit up staight, make eye contact, smile, etc. I followed all the rules but the interviewer just talked over me, barely asked me any questions and was really rude to me. She kept saying things like "aw you're so inexperienced", "you've never been abroad or had a job, you need to go on holiday and go clubbing". When she went to photocopy my ID she was talking about me to her colleague (I didn't hear what she said, I just know because when she came back she said her colleague told her that I needed to go on a clubbing holiday). Then I had to go on the shop floor and it was the worst experience of my life. Everything was painful: the bright lights, the fast pace, the amount of interpersonal interaction.
I'm really not cut out for this and at the moment I am furious that my parents brought me into this World and furious that I obviously haven't had the socialisation and prepartion my peers have had who have thousands of pounds saved, have had jobs since they were 16, have cars and licenses, etc.
Someone I'm kind of friends with is really shy too but she managed to find a job and now has loads of savings. Whereas the big baby over here is stuck at home all day with no job. I feel like such a failure and there is no way I'm cut out to live in this World.
I went to a job interview last November and just thinking about it is making me cry. I tried my best to sit up staight, make eye contact, smile, etc. I followed all the rules but the interviewer just talked over me, barely asked me any questions and was really rude to me. She kept saying things like "aw you're so inexperienced", "you've never been abroad or had a job, you need to go on holiday and go clubbing". When she went to photocopy my ID she was talking about me to her colleague (I didn't hear what she said, I just know because when she came back she said her colleague told her that I needed to go on a clubbing holiday). Then I had to go on the shop floor and it was the worst experience of my life. Everything was painful: the bright lights, the fast pace, the amount of interpersonal interaction.
I'm really not cut out for this and at the moment I am furious that my parents brought me into this World and furious that I obviously haven't had the socialisation and prepartion my peers have had who have thousands of pounds saved, have had jobs since they were 16, have cars and licenses, etc.
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