i feel like i am always concerned about how other people are and always go out of my way to be nice to people and i don't like it if they're in trouble or upset so i will help them. however i find that people very rarely repay this and actually don't give a **** whether you feel like crap or not. maybe it's just people i'm around. but if i see one of my friends is upset i'll try and either talk about it with them if they want or just be normal to try and make them feel better. but if i'm the one who is feeling down in the dumps, it's like they are just selfish and wrapped in their own bubble.
so then i resolve "fine i won't keep being this way i'll change" but i find it SO HARD not to be so concerned about other people it's just the way my brain works and i feel guilty or worried.
i'm not saying i'm miss perfect nice person because i'm not but i just feel like my friends are always just wrapped up in themselves and really don't care if i am having a bad day when i am always there for them. i feel like i'm TOO nice and people just use me sometimes.
so then i resolve "fine i won't keep being this way i'll change" but i find it SO HARD not to be so concerned about other people it's just the way my brain works and i feel guilty or worried.
i'm not saying i'm miss perfect nice person because i'm not but i just feel like my friends are always just wrapped up in themselves and really don't care if i am having a bad day when i am always there for them. i feel like i'm TOO nice and people just use me sometimes.
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