Told my friend of 9 months that I liked her as more than a friend over coffee one night, it took her by surprise, she said she had never seen me like that. We remained friends, I see her every day (we work together).
Wasn't awkward, we chat as we always have, I walk home the same way as her with just me and her, its fun we laugh a lot. For a couple of weeks I tried to be a bit distant, just to let her know I wasn't going to push it, now we're back as we were, laughing and joking, its now about a month later.
But now her behaviour towards me is changing, and I don't know what to make of it, I read too much into what she was doing in the past and I don't want to do that again, also she was quite explicit that she's never fancied me, but I feel like she's giving me mixed messages.
She's started blatantly flirting with other guys in front of me, this is obviously a bit annoying for me (and she never used to do it), but whatever... the weird part is that once they've inevitably swapped numbers she always tells me or my friends that while they were hot, they were boring/stuck up/some negative personality trait, I figure this is her being kind to me. Its just weird, that I've never seen her act like it before.
She talks to my group of friends about every guy she likes, she does things like pick out guys on the street and mention how hot they are.
So this started this more or less right after I told her how I felt and at this point I'm basically of the opinion that she's making a point of not being into me, I'm ok with this, I wish she wouldn't, but whatever, I just ignore it and its fine, I like hanging out with her.
But then we got really drunk one night, and she told me she thought I was the hottest guy at work...I was like 'what the hell', I didn't really know what to say, I just told her that she already knew who I thought was the hottest, and kind of giggled but then someone came over and broke up the conversation. On the flipside my friend (who doesn't know I like her) told her that she was 'the cutest girl in the pub right now', and later on she text him saying she thought he was also 'quite fit' - he showed all his friends the text - he's kind of a dick.
Then a couple of nights later we were in the pub (1 pint) chatting about what to do with 'big spoon's lower arm' and she just starts spooning with me to demonstrate. OK, she might have meant nothing of it, but there were other people she could have demonstrated on, she had to move across the table to get to me, my friend mentioned that it was 'a bit intimate and maybe we should get a room'.
This has become longer than I intended and I feel like a mad man for writing this but basically I've spent the last month getting over her, and I feel like I've just got to the point where I can hang out with her without constantly thinking about how awesome she is and now she's started being all 'you're hot' and its freaking me out, I don't know whether to go back to entertaining the idea that she might like me, or just ignore it and continue down the friend path. At the moment I think the latter, I mean she knows I like her, I feel like its up to her to make a move, but I just thought I'd check with the internet.
Wasn't awkward, we chat as we always have, I walk home the same way as her with just me and her, its fun we laugh a lot. For a couple of weeks I tried to be a bit distant, just to let her know I wasn't going to push it, now we're back as we were, laughing and joking, its now about a month later.
But now her behaviour towards me is changing, and I don't know what to make of it, I read too much into what she was doing in the past and I don't want to do that again, also she was quite explicit that she's never fancied me, but I feel like she's giving me mixed messages.
She's started blatantly flirting with other guys in front of me, this is obviously a bit annoying for me (and she never used to do it), but whatever... the weird part is that once they've inevitably swapped numbers she always tells me or my friends that while they were hot, they were boring/stuck up/some negative personality trait, I figure this is her being kind to me. Its just weird, that I've never seen her act like it before.
She talks to my group of friends about every guy she likes, she does things like pick out guys on the street and mention how hot they are.
So this started this more or less right after I told her how I felt and at this point I'm basically of the opinion that she's making a point of not being into me, I'm ok with this, I wish she wouldn't, but whatever, I just ignore it and its fine, I like hanging out with her.
But then we got really drunk one night, and she told me she thought I was the hottest guy at work...I was like 'what the hell', I didn't really know what to say, I just told her that she already knew who I thought was the hottest, and kind of giggled but then someone came over and broke up the conversation. On the flipside my friend (who doesn't know I like her) told her that she was 'the cutest girl in the pub right now', and later on she text him saying she thought he was also 'quite fit' - he showed all his friends the text - he's kind of a dick.
Then a couple of nights later we were in the pub (1 pint) chatting about what to do with 'big spoon's lower arm' and she just starts spooning with me to demonstrate. OK, she might have meant nothing of it, but there were other people she could have demonstrated on, she had to move across the table to get to me, my friend mentioned that it was 'a bit intimate and maybe we should get a room'.
This has become longer than I intended and I feel like a mad man for writing this but basically I've spent the last month getting over her, and I feel like I've just got to the point where I can hang out with her without constantly thinking about how awesome she is and now she's started being all 'you're hot' and its freaking me out, I don't know whether to go back to entertaining the idea that she might like me, or just ignore it and continue down the friend path. At the moment I think the latter, I mean she knows I like her, I feel like its up to her to make a move, but I just thought I'd check with the internet.
Put the internet to work for you.
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