My father got remarried 3 years ago and he's almost completely left me now. Before he got married, we were so close to each other but we did so many discussions with each other and I was a troublesome boy. I am now 19 years old and I live away from him. When I go to him, that woman is always trying to put distance between me and my father. When they wanted to go to vocation my father invited me but then that woman persuaded him to tell me than his plan is cancelled and he's not going. I eventually ended up going there but whats important is that he tried to uninvite me because of that whore. She doesn't allow us to be alone with each other, she is always following us . When I am here, he barely calls me and when I say why he doesn't give me any answers.
But there are contradictions as well. To be fair, he is spending half of his salary on my education. But he didn't ever seem happy when I told him that I was offered a place at UCL/LSE/Durham and got an interview from Oxford(still waiting for a decision). It's not so much the fact that I lost my father that hurts as much as that it is the feeling of extreme revenge that I have towards that woman. I like to murder her, but it is forbidden in my religion. She also has two you kids. Besides, I would not want to ruin my future. Apart from that, I am WEAK. I can exert any power on her, she just keeps doing whatever she wants and I have to fall victim. I don't really see her that often/ But,still, when I think about it really upsets me, I punch the wall or hit myself just to get rid of the thought. Thank you for reading this.
But there are contradictions as well. To be fair, he is spending half of his salary on my education. But he didn't ever seem happy when I told him that I was offered a place at UCL/LSE/Durham and got an interview from Oxford(still waiting for a decision). It's not so much the fact that I lost my father that hurts as much as that it is the feeling of extreme revenge that I have towards that woman. I like to murder her, but it is forbidden in my religion. She also has two you kids. Besides, I would not want to ruin my future. Apart from that, I am WEAK. I can exert any power on her, she just keeps doing whatever she wants and I have to fall victim. I don't really see her that often/ But,still, when I think about it really upsets me, I punch the wall or hit myself just to get rid of the thought. Thank you for reading this.
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