Wait till after Christmas ?

Well... I think I've finally made up my mind. I will have been dating this girl for 2 years at the end of this month. I broke up with her a few months back... she lured me back in after a little over 2 weeks. She seemed like a different person. She toned down her extremes...for awhile... now they've been re-emerging. What gets me.. is I can go from almost completely despising her... to having loving/caring feelings for her again. I'm getting tired of these ups and downs. I've come to the conclusion that we just don't see eye to eye on alot of things. We raise our kids differently, we run a household differently, we view the world differently. Simple things like shopping or going to a movie... eventually will end up in an argument. When we argue at night... it gets worse and worse as the night goes on... I end up just leaving or hanging up the phone. I can't allow stuff like that to effect my day to day life of going to work and other reponsib ilities. Her current argument is ... I don't treat her son (17) the same as my son (9). She thinks we "are" a mixed family.. and that everything needs to be fair for everyone. She gave me a hard time of buying presents for my biological son.. and not being "equal" in presents for her son. I explained to her.. that I don't think that should be of her concern. I shouldn't have to change my gift giving intentions for my own son... to make it "fair" to her teenage son. I told her I don't care if she decides to buy my son gifts... that's her choice. She constantly insists that I need to act like a fatherly role in our "mixed family" relationship. We aren't married.. nor engaged... and I've been feeling like I want to distance myself from her. So as of recently.. i've been pretty emotionally dull.. and reserved... and snapping at any disagreement we have. I dont' feel the intimacy towards her.. that's she's wanting. She continually showers me with hugs, kisses, handh olding.. etc.... (Alot of times in public) I just keep pretending like I care... but inside I really don't. Must be her instinct of trying not to lose me... but currently it's been making me feel awkward.
Question I have... is.... should I mellow out right now.. and "pretend" things are ok... and ride it out through the Holidays... or should I continually stay gruff... and not let her have an inch ? I just don't want Christmas to be a disaster for her and our son's. .. (Since we have some planned family time). Thanks for reading. :santahat:

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