In desperate need of advice!

Hi everyone I am writing on here because I am very confused at the moment, I don't need to be judged, i know I have done wrong and regret a lot. So here's my problem... I was with my ex for five years we were completely in love I was so happy, we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. He was the perfect boyfriend always buying me flowers, making me breakfast in bed etc he would basically have done anything for me. All was fantastic then after 3 years of being together I got pregnant, all was still good but when I had my son things started to go down hill, we started to argue alot and stopped making time for each other, although I knew he still loved me I didn't feel attractive anymore as he would never compliment me or show he still liked me. He always referred to me as mum and I felt like that's all I now was. I was still happy to carry on u till... On a work night out I got chatting to a guy from work who showed me the attention I didn't realise i had missed, I made it clear I wasn't interested and would never cheat on my boyfriend. After that we started to talk a lot at work just as friends but he started to tell me he liked me and I started to like him too. I know it was wrong but we also started to message each other out of work. After a few months things with my boyfriend got worse and he said he was going to move in with his friend for abit. I then decided I didn't want him to come back. That was one year ago. A few months after we had split I started going out with the other guy and we have been together about 8 months now although we were obviously talking to each other alot longer. My ex also jumped straight into a relationship with someone else. Although I do love him it isn't the same as what I used to feel for my ex and I still get doubts in my head just about every day that I did the right thing. I feel like if I hadn't met my now boyfriend I would have put more effort into making the relationship work, and deep down I feel like he is the one I should be with. Anyway last night I found out that my ex has just left his new girlfriend and I feel like if ever there was a chance to get back together this would be it? However it's more complicated my boyfriend is completely in love with me and it would completely break his heart, I have no idea what to do, I don't even know if I could end things with him as I do have feelings for him. I am just as confused as when I was still with my ex. Please help! Any advice welcome please Thanks in advance Xx

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