How will I ever get a girlfriend?

When I was little my parents used to always make relationships sound like something only funny/strange people do. It's hard to explain, so i'll give some examples: *Gets a text* "Ooooh is that your girlfriend? Haha haha" *Decides to tidy bedroom* "Blimey, what made you decide to do that? You must have a girl friend haha haha" My grandparents used to do it too: *Someone knocks on the door* *Parent opens door & says its for me* Grandparent: "Is it your girl friend ahahaha" Obviously it was said as a joke but when you're little you don't like people laughing at you. This then made me not want to get into a relationship because I worried about what my parents would say or do. If you had been to a party and had a picture taken with a girl, they would go 'Oooo who's she then' and I used to hate it. It was so worried about it that I used to try and not talk to girls. This carried on into year 7/8 where I used to avoid girls who were nice to me as I was so worried about them asking me out as it made me feel stupid and low. I still feel awkward talking to girls and even touching them (ie.hugs), heck, I even feel awkward saying the word girlfriend when my parents are around. I know it sounds stupid but things that happen in your childhood make a huge impact on your life. I still can't imagine ever telling my parents if I got into a relationship. I just can't imagine how they would react and i'd probably be the butt of everyone's jokes in my family for a very long time. I still think of relationships as childish and stupid because that's how I was brought up to see them- obviously my parents didn't do this on purpose though. I have improved since secondary school though. I do talk to girls now but I still feel a bit intimidated. It's horrible, especially when all your mates go on about is girls and I feel so awkward talking about the subject. I even feel awkward when my mates ask me if I think someone is fit or not. I've never had a girlfriend and I can't ever see myself having one, unless I move away from my parents and never tell them. Any thoughts are welcome...

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