Around this time last year my wife said she was leaving and moved to her mothers house a couple blocks over. She said she fell out of love with me because I neglected her for so many years due to my online gaming addiction. A couple months before she moved out she started to feel better about herself and another married guy at her work started making her feel wanted. Their friendship grew close. He expressed how much he liked her. She told me it made her feel good that someone else noticed her like that. Anyways, we have a 6 year old son together. So during the time she was living at her mothers house, she would come over here right after work and stay late into the hours. Sometimes spend the night. Our sex life was still intact. We would still go out as a family and do stuff. The only difference was she was spending the night at her mothers. Every night she would be over here with me and our son. This continued on until early September when we found out she was pregnant. We have never practiced safe sex and the baby was conceived around the end of August. I was unaware a woman could conceive a baby during their menstruate period and she gave me the ok not to pull out. Signs started to appear that she may be pregnant. Well, one Sat morning after her spending the night, she called me into the bathroom to tell me she is pregnant. We talked and she move back in. The last 8-9 months has not been easy. She had to quit her job because its been a tough pregnancy. (Our son was born at 27 weeks because wife had Preeclampsia) She said when she came back she was trying. Her coming back was her trying she said. She was wearing her wedding rings and telling me she loved me back when I told her. She said she even gave up talking to the other guy at her work. But I could not stop worrying about her talking to him. I would constantly look for stuff to see if she was. I would always bring him up or look at the phone bill. She blocked him on her phone but every once in a while I would see text he sent to her. Her never sending any back. I would still ask about it and it would upset her because she would tell me she doesn't even know he sends them because she has him block. It was on my mind day and night. Always fearful she was talking to him behind my back. I even taped recorded her in the house one night and thought I had hard evidence but it turns out it was the tv playing in the background and she showed me what show it was. I felt horrible. She broke down in tears and cried for a while f or what I done. That was several months back. About 2 to 3 weeks ago she stopped having sex with me. Than a week ago today she moved out again. This time she said she is done. She said she can't do it anymore. She told me I am controlling and she can't be in a controlling relationship any longer. I know I have been controlling over the years and I really don't want to be. I just worry a lot and think worst case scenario all the time. For the last several months she said she will be moving back out sometime after the baby is born. So everyday that pasted, I saw it as one day closer to her leaving. A couple days ago she told me that I had gotten worse with controlling. I have never gotten violent with her and never will but lately we have had some heated arguments. I tried to explain to her how I felt about getting closer and closer to our baby girls due date and she replied, "but I was still here and haven't left yet." With her telling me several times she is moving back out after the baby, it just killed any h ope of us working things out. I was always panicking. Started to get bad anxiety over the last couple months. Last night we went out to dinner with our 6 year old. When we got back home, she asked me to rub her feet so I did because the are swollen. Well it turned into an hour body massage (nothing sexual) because her whole body has been hurting. She almost dozed off a couple times. Well after the massage she saw it was getting late and she left. Every night she leaves, I feel the pain all over again. She called me when she got back to where she is staying and we talked for a little over an hour. For the most part it was a heated conversation. Well about 3:30 am this morning I had to call her to tell her I won't be needing the car today and we ended up talking for 2 hours. This conversation was completely opposite of that a few hours before. We talked about funny memories, good memories and stuff like that. She said she wondered how things would have turned out if I just gave her the space she was asking for. I told her I felt so threaten by her friendship with this other guy and his feelings for my wife that I was scared to give her space. She even said she occasionally thought a couple months back if after the baby is born, if her loving feelings for me could come back. So here I sit, got a baby on the way in a couple weeks and I just want to call her and talk about us. No amount of talking has fixed anything but I still want to try and talk about it to fix it. I know I should just leave her alone, but its just so hard. I am so scared. We have been together for almost 9 years and married for almost 5. She is 27 and I am 32. | |||
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(Please Read!) Wife is pregnant and left second time and said she is done
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