| Hi, so I'll start from the beginning as it'll make more sense :) I grew up in a small village were there wasn't a lot of guys who were the same age as me, I obviously had friends here but they gradually moved away and I was forced to make new ones. Across the street I had made some new mates with a load of sisters and we used to play, talk etc etc. I was around 7-10 at the time. It was great fun but I soon came to realize that the younger sister had a thing for me. I didn't feel the same way at the time, I didn't even feel ready to start dating until I was 15 so I had turned down/pretended like I didn't notice to quite a few girls while I was at secondary/primary school. At the time I never really had any feelings for her but as far as I'm aware she's sort of had a thing for me all this time, this was confirmed by her mum who I'd talk to occasionally and a few other people. I'm quite picky when it comes to girls, I've never been on a date with a girl who i didn't know a bit beforehand. As a result I've only ever gone out on three first dates and have only ever had 3 girlfriends :P lol When I first did start dating girls I had thought about it but I felt like the age difference was too big and I didn't really share the feelings she had so I didn't want to lead her on. Anyway - I'm 19 now, on my gap year and I'm meant to start university in the coming year, however she is 16 sitting her GCSEs at the moment. (I'm quite young in my year and she's quite old for her year, might even be the eldest. ) Recently she came into my work and she was all dressed up and bubbly in a way I hadn't known before. She was very friendly and so full of life, it's hard to describe but I kind-of saw her in a new light. But I repressed my feelings as I felt the age difference was too great. However, recently her mum came into the shop where I work and strongly hinted that she still had this thing for me. In a way that was a kind of approval? I've known their family for years and they're all very friendly. I know now that my feelings are actually quite strong, she's such a genuine person, very caring and she's actually really beautiful. Even when I see her without makeup on (most girls hate not wearing makeup, but she doesn't seem fussed) I think she's really great looking. It's very strange because I have had a few girlfriends in the past and never once before have I had a dream about them, but with her I had the oddest dream where we were just like having coffee and watching movies, laughing, like typical relationship stuff. And it just came out the blue too, I had been watching 24 Hours In A&E beforehand. Lol I was thinking of waiting until the exams were over and then asking her out or something? I don't want anyone to think that I'm some older perv or something, I'm a Christian and am still a virgin through choice, I don't know if I want to wait until marriage but I really want to wait until I find the right person; incidentally I haven't slept with any past girlfriends (2 girlfriends who I went out with each for year and 1 for a few months, I've never been into girls for a single night or anything.) Is the age difference still an issue? I do really like her and if I did ask her out I really hope she would say yes. From what I gather she obviously doesn't see age as an issue lol. Thanks in advance, and thanks for reading my essay! :P :) | |||
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