Sexually frustrated.

I think I know the answer to my problem... or why I'm having the problem. I just don't know how to fix it. I just want to fix it. So here it is. I want sex all of the time. Literally. I want my guy every chance I can have him. At bed time, while I'm cooking in the kitchen, on his lunch break at work... I want him. There is no lack of desire on my part. I'm a BJ girl. I love loving him in that way. He loves it too, I might add. But, I'm starting to feel that's all he loves. Sex for us has become a "chore" to him. He said the words. Yep. He did. He watches porn. It didn't bother me until I found out he'd opted out of sex with me to masturbate alone. Ouch. Wind sucked right out of me. Guess it would have been different if he were home alone. Why not, right? But, I was in the bed...2 rooms over. WTF?? He said that I was already sleeping and there was no point in waking me up so he could do a chore that would just make him more tired anyway. But he hardly ever does the work??? Ok, whatever, move on. Here lately here's what a night of sex is like for us. Me, smelling good laying in bed completely naked... my body wanting his to want mine... him knowing it's been "x" amount of days since we've had sex, knowing it has to happen tonight, so he rolls onto his back and waits for the BJ. What about the part where you touch me, pal? What about the part where you kiss me like you can't wait to ravage me? What about the part where you WANT me, too? I don't want to go to bed in a bad mood so I give him the BJ and end up on top of him or him behind me. So boring. There's rarely a makeout session and if there is time is of essence... gotta hurry or "it" might happen. "It's" where he goes soft. Completely soft. Smack in the face. It hurts. Bad. There is no "waking it" after this has happened. It's done for. Toast. Dead for the night. I'm getting to a point where I can no longer orgasm. I feel like I'm starving. I've been faking orgasms for so long now and he doesn't even know. And I f eel bad for this. But when it first started happening, I thought it would get better and wouldn't matter. But its not getting better. And I don't know how to talk to him. I love this man. He is a selfish ******* at times. And at other times he is a selfless lover. I am madly in love with him. I just need something to give. This is such a sensitive subject, I don't want to say or do the wrong thing.

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