H looking at younger-than-me porn and I feel weird about it

I have an ongoing thread on this board but I wanted to throw this out there to get some wider opinions. I was using H's phone yesterday and I saw he had been looking at porn. This in itself is no problem. However I noticed that he had picked up on a site that features younger women, 18+. I want to be *very* clear it was nothing questionable. I guess it just took me by surprise because he has never really looked at that kind of porn that I know of, and we do share what we have been looking at. I know all the rational arguments, that it does not reflect on me, men like variety, the appeal of a younger woman etc. And I am pretty OK about him using porn. But for some reason this has bothered me. We have an ongoing issue with him having rejected me consistently last year for around 6 months or so which killed my esteem and we have been battling the after effects ever since. I have been convinced from that and his lack of affection that he does not find me attractive any more. He says he absolutely does, and we just had a great weekend away, then I found this and I feel a bit weird about it. I think it has tapped in to my esteem issues and there is some feeling of just not being able to compare. Again, logically I "get" it is not an issue of being compared, but I cannot shake this feeling of not liking it. Other porn does not bother me because I am attractive and so feel OK in comparison but I guess I worry that alongside a fit 18 year old... well, there is just NO WAY I can compare with that! I need to handle this because I do not want my esteem to dive lower because of this. Help!

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