| Been with my girlfriend around a year now, both early twenties. At the start of the relationship I disclosed my history to her (because she asked) which is 5 people so she knows everything about me. The thing is though, I didn't ask for the details of her past because i'd gotten the hint it was a lot and didn't want to get too uncomfortable. I do have a rough idea based on conversations, and every so often, she'll say something about some guy who she used to see as it fits a point shes making in the conversation. I know of about 6 people now through these conversations but it is ALOT more than that. Those 6 were pretty much in the last year. She's not in Uni anymore and has previously told me she was pretty promiscuous in her first year. Even though I know it's ridiculously silly, that i'm insecure and that her past doesn't matter - I still find myself thinking about it quite a lot and can't help it. She doesn't regret anything either - so it's not even like it's some sort of dodgy phase she went through which shes happy to have come out of. The other thing is, she's quite open to tell me and I think she would actually prefer too so that we know everything about one another. There have been so many times where I've just wanted to find out but i'm so paranoid about how i'll react. Sometimes I just feel really lame compared to her that she's experienced so much and worked out what shes wanted which is great. But it makes me feel lame and not as wordly-wise that I don't have similar experience. Someone tell me I'm being a bellend ? | |||
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