| I've been in a FWB type situation for over two years, although we never referred to it as this but we both knew it was a bit less than a relationship, but we were more than friends; it wasn't just about sex in the end as we grew to have feelings for one another. It's been very rough over the past few months - lots of arguing, my feelings growing stronger, and trying to call it quits every other week but I eventually give in, but a bit of background history... I had met him a while ago through my ex, who I was with at the time, and then I met him a few years later at a concert (Jan 2011) - I was instantly attracted to him. I already had him as a BBM contact so I started talking to him on there later on. We carried on talking for months, and he wanted to meet up (primarily for sex I'd assume) but I was quite wary, especially as I hadn't had sex for 3+ years so I didn't want to get so emotionally attached only to then get hurt. When we first got talking I liked him a lot, but over time my feelings died down and I felt like I could perhaps do better than him. Anyway, he went away in the summer and gave me his number so we could keep in contact, which we did, and when he returned I finally decided to meet up with him and we had sex - this was in October. We continued talking after this, and met up a few times, but I didn't want to have sex with him again although we did other things. He let me down a few times when we were meant to meet up, and conversations were becoming more sexual, and I felt unhappy and that I shouldn't really be settling for that. I met someone else and started seeing him for a bit, told my FWB and he wanted us to meet up before things became serious with this new guy...he then kept messaging me every so often even though I ignored them all, and he apologised for the way he'd previously acted. Things with the new guy eventually died down and I started talking to my FWB again, although I KNEW I'd eventually regret it. I saw him at a wedding a few weeks later, and he messaged me later telling me he thought I looked really nice and how much he liked me and wanted to take me out to the cinema or for a meal. I thought this was nice, but I just wasn't interested in him at that point so I declined. He then brought it up a few more times over the next few weeks, saying he really wanted to watch this film with me, so then I ended up going, and we went for a meal aswell. At that time I didn't really fancy him, so it didn't feel special, but it was so nice how he made such an effort and if he were to ask me to the cinema now I'd jump at the chance as I'm in love with the guy. Eventually we started having sex again, but the past few months have been such a rollercoaster. He told me he loved me whilst he was drunk one night, and I didn't say it back but I told him to not drink so much instead as I know alcohol can make you say silly things. A few weeks ago, though, I told him I'm in love with him, but that I was upset because I know the feelings not mutual, and he said that maybe it is, but then went on to say he's never been in love, never been in that situation etc. I'm off to uni in September, and I'm excited, but he's expressed concern over the fact that I might meet another guy/ other people and he said he wants us to keep talking, although he's previously said he's not ready for commitment, and that while he has feelings for me he was put off developing strong feelings for me when I met someone else and was horrible to him (which was really his own fault!) but I don't know if that's just a lame excuse. He is so loyal though, and I admit I haven't been in the past - he has found out a few things and wasn't happy, but I can't even think of doing anything with any other guy now. Anyway, we got in to an argument a few days ago and both told one another to f*** off. Since then, I've changed my number to enable me to get over him. Usually when we don't talk for a bit he'll always message and ring me, and so he's probably already found out I've changed it. He's written something to this girl on twitter in a bid to get me jealous - I was crying my eyes out last night, but it's made me realise he's really not worth it! I have a wedding coming up in a few months time which he will be at, so I want to focus on myself and make him realise then what he's missed out on. I just want to know whether I'm being ridiculous in changing my number, and am I in the wrong, or am I right to just completely call all of this off? Also, any tips to help me get over him would be great :). | |||
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