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Can't change the past, what should i do?

It took me quite a while before i have the courage to post this here. This forum has been very helpful and i thought i could use some advice.

I am 29 this year and she is 26. We got married a year ago and we are currently expecting our first child end of this year. We have been seeing each other on and off for the past 8 years. In between, due to LDR, she used to date another guy while i was posted overseas, and i totally aware of that. I get that, she is lonely during that period of time and she said that she regrets that now, but the past cannot be changed.

Few days back, i was recovering some data from our old laptop and i found some photo, with my wife and her ex boyfriend from college when they were together. I also found a letter she wrote to him. it was quite intimate and what i remember the most was that she loved his smell, his kiss and everything. I am trying to be fair to her and i don't blame her for what happened before we got back together, but it actually hurts me a lot. I told her about the letter and the photo, she got upset and asked me to delete them. What hurt me the most is that for the past 2 years after we get back together, she had some resentment towards my kiss, how I hug her and even my body odor. I felt that there is no love in our marriage and i was just her second choice. She always complains about how i look stupid with my glasses, which i had rectified it by undergoing the LASIK Surgery ayear ago. She complained about my irregularly shaped teeth, i had undergone braces treatment for the past 3 yea rs. She complained about my body shape, i had been going to gym and taking supplements for the past few months. But...body odor and the way i kiss? that is too much isn't it? I felt that she already had a great sex life but it was not with me and now she doesn't feel that from me.

I am a little lost and confused now. I cant be so selfish now. Help?




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