Am I a abd person for displeasing my Mum?

My mum isn't controlling as such but can be bossy and nag me about things Just to give today's example I'm getting ready for the commute to uni and Mum offers to give me a lift. She notices I've got 3 bags, one's quite heavy, asks why. I try and explain it's because, aside from, I've got so much stuff to take I need 2 bags to do it. She demands to look in them. She says why are you taking to the gym, you could drop them off at home. The gym is next to the train station whereas my house is a 20 minute walk. She won;t have this, she says I won't listen. We were getting on well but today I've felt quite ashamed of myself and when I left I felt such a bad person that I needed to eat and punish myself. I really feel I've let her down. Now magnify this to the level where at my age (20) I'm supposed to have the right to choose what to eat, what to do, where to work, what to study, what to believe, who to vote for, who to go out with, who to listen to and why. All of this feels like betraying Mum and I;'ll be honest I started to flunk my degree half-deliberately because I wasn't sure Mum would be happy with it. That feels quite stupid now but I'm not entirely sure I could live with msyelf if my mum was angry with me. Does this make me a bad person, taking all those bags because I had to go do work and taking them to the gym to save time? Even though she seemed really annoyed I didn't take her advice? Really does it make me a bad person if I do something she doesn't like?

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