Hey guys, so my life in the past few days has literally been turned upside and I just really need some people to chat too who have maybe been through the same events as me to offer some advice.
So to cut a long story short, my mum left my dad a few months ago and has been living with her mom, however two days ago me and my dad (who I have been living with) had a massive argument as he wanted to kick my brother out for seeing my moms new boyfriend (which he allowed) and I defended my brother. The argument got very heated and my dad said a lot of things that I hated about my mom (he has attempted to stay reserved about it for me but that night he called her names I shan't repeat here) I am now living with my nan after he told me to leave (and my mom).
I love my dad to the ends of the earth, as do I my mum. I hate the fact that all of this has happened but there is one thing that bugs me more than anything...
I feel so sorry for my dad, like I can't get over this intense guilt that I feel for arguing with him even though I believe I have done no wrong (I tried to stay calm in the argument even though he was getting enraged). Every night since leaving I can't help but feel devastated at the thought of him struggling alone (my sister I still there but she is also enstranged with him at the moment) without anyone to talk to or to spend time with. My dad has never had any friends, and I am now more so than ever feeling terrible at the idea of him loosing the people who he held closest and who he has before claimed are all that matters to him.
Advice anyone?
also - I have also had this sympathy problem - I used to feel sorry for the bad guys in movies in the thought that they had to suffer in some way when good prevails. I feel sorry for people I dislike and who dislike me - I hate the idea of anyone suffering in pain no matter who they are as a result of something I have done. I almost perceive them as helpless children (I know, weird right?) who are being abused by life. urgh, I don't even know.
Thanks guys!
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