we've been friends since highschhol and i have to admit she was really nice to me back then when i didn't have any friends she introduced me to hers
however she always made me follow her everywhere to do things only she wanted to do e.g go meet her 'boyfriend' who lived on the other side of london because she didn't want to make the two hour journey alone ill sit there like an idiot for hours while both of them had their fun
( i did try having fun with them but it i was basically the third wheel and felt like i was invading )
shell ask me to follow her to get her hair done which took hours as she always got perm treatments
i might sound like the idiot who followed her but at the time i thought it was fine since i was an introvert who just wanted someone to relate with ( i was lonely up until then and had no friends throughout my life due to social anxiety)
for the first time i thought i had a friend and a best friend at that who understood me i just thought i was the one who was akward when she took me to these places
the thing is now we are both in diffrent universities and i have slowly purposely drifted away from her over time ( we are still very close )
but i don't follow her everywhere in fact sometimes i make her tag on when like when i go meet my friends.
i also go when she wants to meet hers at returants , fun times out and amusement parks , shopping
but the thing is nowadays she's been so big headed like she will only talk about her self ( there was a time i really was going through a rough patch and she was not there for me!)
find every opportunity to slyly show off about herself in some silly indirect way or another e.g someone texting her or someone poking her on Facebook ( silly i know but she's like that)
i feel like I'm treated as her little minion or sheep despite the fact i am how do i say ' socially independent now'
like if she doesn't want to go to get her hair done alone
go to a job interview alone
needs a phone charger
wants someone to buy her lunch
somewhere to go to escape her parents and stay at mine
shell come then expecting me to open my arms wide..
the thing is i would drop her but i feel really grateful to her for helping me back then ( even if she was using me, because we genuinely have a lot of funny memories we have been friends for 4 years )
we have have never had a fight but we have had an argument before which was her fault and her ego will never allow her to admit she was in the wrong or say the words sorry or even please!
i really don't know what to do
i really don't want any fake friends but i honestly feel like we don't have much to relate too anymore and we just know each other a long time that a it she even claims I'm her best friend to others but to me she talks about this other girl being her best friend .
i feel like she's just trying to sabotage me and try to make me jealous for some reason.
sorry for the long essay and grammer mess-ups i can't be bothered to go back and wrote this in a storm to get this off my chest
what do you guys advice i do
leave her?
still be friends but keep a distance
continue to be close?
i would talk to her about my feelings but believe me I've done i called her out on a few things she's done but she always backs it up with some excuse or another http://ift.tt/1wxdAwx
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