So this is a long story but but I feel like if I talk about this it might help. A little history about us we've been married 6 years in October and together 12 years. He's cheated on me once back about 2 and a half years ago and while hesitant I took him back. He said we were going to go to counseling and that. We went once during this time. He said due to the fact we were broke. So now our current situation I guess this started back in August -July for him anyway. I was fine we might've bickered but I was fine. After I had my son it got worse. He complained to me how we were fighting all the time blah blah blah. And I was like it's all due to stress and being tired. Mind you I was still adjusting to motherhood and healing from a c section and felt so alone. I couldn't explain it to him because he's never been through something like that. I started getting anxiety and things and while I was happy and felt I had my son I just felt like I was going to hur t him on accident. I'm better now though. So my husband basically said we argue and that I'm no fun to be around anymore and wanted a separation. So I was angry he would do that to us as a new family. Naturally we have the same friends and on night while at home with my son I only heard from him one time during the day to tell me he was going to help a mutal friend move. And he asked do I know her situation and I knew she was going through a divorce and she needed help and asked my husband a another guy to help. Well I noticed my husband didn't come home. And he text me about 11 pm. "I'm so sorry we've been drinking beers all day and we passed out. I ended getting a flat tire and this is so close to work that I might as well just stay. Sorry this is so ****ed up." I naturally yelled at him. But ended up nicely letting it go sort of. Lol. His actions from then on kept pissing me off. And what I said to him did not matter he would rather be out then at home with his family. S o I wasn't talking to him when I would get home from work because I knew it would be a fight and I was holding my tounge. That weekend he needed to go out of town for work for a week. He was watching our son all day and I said to him do want to go do something when I get off work. He said no he wanted to do it alone. So I got mad. He left for work and don't call and ask how me or the baby was doing. Alone for the first time with a baby....(thank god I had my mom.) So the only reason he called was to yell at me for telling a friend of ours our situation. And then He said he didn't want to be in the relationship no longer. I was shocked and hurt and just said me too. While I was mad and thought about not being married I knew that deep down I did. Anyways so after that I moved out and he said we would have to work out days he could see our son. He wanted me to leave him all day one day so he could watch him. I'm just not ok with that because my husband drinks and I know he dr ives like that sometimes. I told him I don't trust you with our son to drink and drive. He said he would never do that. But a part of me doesn't want to leave him. Plus I'm breastfeeding so that wouldn't work. Fast forward...In the mean time we started talking a lot more friendly in the days after that. We started flirting over the phone and we ended up having sex. Fast forward again he's been hanging with that "mutual" friend who has daughter and blew off seeing his son to go to her daughter birthday. I was furious. I feel like he doesn't deserve to his son now. I didn't want this for my family. And the only reason he could give me for wanting to go to this party is he's feeling depressed and he's stressed. I feel like being like this was your choice! I didn't cause this! While I might've been a little touchy around my pregnancy it was because of you. Now you're suffering the consequences of your actions. While I love him dearly and I want to reconcile in way. I just don't get why he would treat his family like this.
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