My divorce was finalized almost a year ago, although we were separated prior to that for quite some time. He was a cheater, and once he found a good fit for him, he spilled the beans that he was already living with someone else (on another continent), and wanted a divorce. It was rough.
Several months into that, I became an empty nester. My child is all the family I have left.
I sold the house, found a new job, and moved away, to a place that I thought would be supportive of my lifestyle. I was wrong, and social integration is next to impossible. Two years in, I am yet again, in the slow and painful process of selling the house, while job hunting in a more populated area again.
I'm dying inside of loneliness. Dating is pretty much not an option for me in this area. Although, I am seeing someone on a casual basis. Truth be told, I love this person, not because I am lonely, but because of how he moves me. Yet, he has his own issues going on, and does not want romance in his life.
If find the combination of post-divorce and empty nest agonizing, to say the least, and the feeling is heightened by the lack of social opportunities in this godforbidden part of the country. And before you ask: it's the job that moved me here. A good one. I had no idea that things would become this bad! I lived in different places, and always integrated myself. No so here.
Several months into that, I became an empty nester. My child is all the family I have left.
I sold the house, found a new job, and moved away, to a place that I thought would be supportive of my lifestyle. I was wrong, and social integration is next to impossible. Two years in, I am yet again, in the slow and painful process of selling the house, while job hunting in a more populated area again.
I'm dying inside of loneliness. Dating is pretty much not an option for me in this area. Although, I am seeing someone on a casual basis. Truth be told, I love this person, not because I am lonely, but because of how he moves me. Yet, he has his own issues going on, and does not want romance in his life.
If find the combination of post-divorce and empty nest agonizing, to say the least, and the feeling is heightened by the lack of social opportunities in this godforbidden part of the country. And before you ask: it's the job that moved me here. A good one. I had no idea that things would become this bad! I lived in different places, and always integrated myself. No so here.
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