We've been married for 8 years and have 3 kids together. I'm also bipolar. I think I want out. Growing up I was abused by my father. 2 years ago though my dad came into my life a changed man so I accepted him back into my life. Our relationship was just perfect at once. My husband has raised 6 times his hands at me knowing what that's does to me. The lies are just all the time with him. About 2 weeks ago my dad was killed. He left and my word has fallen apart. Instead of having my husbands support I don't. I have to deal with my dad's death, the really bad relationships with my mom and sisters and now him threatening to leave. I called him out and yet on another lie the day my father died. I could of been there while he was still alive but because of his lie I wasn't. Meanwhile a few days before that we had a long long convo and he said everything would be different. I can't deal with this right now and he dissent care or respect anything. He says he lov ed me I just don't see how he can love me and instead of holding me hand kick me more while I'm down. So tonight he's leaving and for the first time I won't be trying to put sense into his head or try to figure out what's really the problem. And then I keep thinking. I live in Greece and there's no help from anyone really. If he leaves how do we survive? I have 3 kids and no help. In order for them to get into daycare I first have to work. What do I do with them until they do? What kind of job since I don't have any background? I can't deal with all this at the same time. What do I do? I've tried everything with him and nothing seems to work. I love him but should I just let him go? If he wants to leave he will I'm just wondering do I fight to save my marriage again or do I just give up?
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