It's been almost five months since my second miscarriage. I'm still in counseling. I'm still depressed. I'm still having anxiety. And DH and I are struggling. Emotionally, things are just...off. He's still not meeting my needs the way he needs to. He admits this, owns it, and apologizes, but very little changes. He wants to change. But doesn't know why he doesn't. We think he may be depressed.
And I just feel stuck. I've been slowly getting back into the gym, changing what I eat, and making plans for the future, but...I still feel stuck. I'm angry over all that's happened. I deserve to be happy and healthy and fulfilled, not depressed, afraid, and dissatisfied.
I had an amazing day with some of my best friends yesterday, and it was much needed. And overall I feel like I'm improving, progressing, but day-to-day feels very different.
I don't know the point of the thread, I just...feel lost.
And I just feel stuck. I've been slowly getting back into the gym, changing what I eat, and making plans for the future, but...I still feel stuck. I'm angry over all that's happened. I deserve to be happy and healthy and fulfilled, not depressed, afraid, and dissatisfied.
I had an amazing day with some of my best friends yesterday, and it was much needed. And overall I feel like I'm improving, progressing, but day-to-day feels very different.
I don't know the point of the thread, I just...feel lost.
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