I am married for almost 8 years. Me and my husband just clicked. We had a fabulous sex life. I love sex.
Suddenly one day I couldn't stand his touch, his kiss etc, not to mention the other activities. I was ashamed with myself as a woman, I was ashamed to talk to a psychotherapist, I made myself sick and I even saw myself unattractive.
No amount of looking in the mirror, counseling, thinking, guys that found me very attractive, helped.
I couldn't for the file of me understand why:( So my husband was supportive, I loved him and I was in love with him, he is handsome, good in bed no issues here.
So after few days of talking with you guys on this forum I just had an "Ëvrika" moment. I realized few things: I still desire my husband, he jokingly told me no to some sexual requests in the past, my subconscious stored those NO's and at a certain time shut my body down completely.
My husband did not insisted, did not give me a little push so we stayed like this.
Today of all days, after he is hurt and wants a divorce exactly for this reason I understood that I wanted some things from him and I was to ashamed to ask because of those No's in the past.
I had some needs and I couldn't realize I had them.
What do I do?:( I hurt him, myself and wasted:(:( all this time.
Suddenly one day I couldn't stand his touch, his kiss etc, not to mention the other activities. I was ashamed with myself as a woman, I was ashamed to talk to a psychotherapist, I made myself sick and I even saw myself unattractive.
No amount of looking in the mirror, counseling, thinking, guys that found me very attractive, helped.
I couldn't for the file of me understand why:( So my husband was supportive, I loved him and I was in love with him, he is handsome, good in bed no issues here.
So after few days of talking with you guys on this forum I just had an "Ëvrika" moment. I realized few things: I still desire my husband, he jokingly told me no to some sexual requests in the past, my subconscious stored those NO's and at a certain time shut my body down completely.
My husband did not insisted, did not give me a little push so we stayed like this.
Today of all days, after he is hurt and wants a divorce exactly for this reason I understood that I wanted some things from him and I was to ashamed to ask because of those No's in the past.
I had some needs and I couldn't realize I had them.
What do I do?:( I hurt him, myself and wasted:(:( all this time.
Put the internet to work for you.
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