I met him at work (we don't work together anymore) a couple of years ago. We became friends pretty quick as we have the same sense of humour, same principles, on the same wavelength etc. and share stuff in common. I never found him super attractive, he's alright, and I just thought of him as a friend for a good year or so. There was some chemistry there but I just wrote it off as friend chemistry.
Last summer I started to feel differently about him, wondering what it'd be like if something 'happened'... and the chemistry has built a LOT since then, to the point where people are picking up on it. My feelings for him are on/off though, sometimes I think no we're just friends, sometimes I really have genuine feelings, but whenever we're together there's just something there and after seeing him last week, it all came back to me and I wanted him all over again.
I see him a fair amount in our circle, we never really spend any time alone together though. I went through a phase of really liking him for a couple of months but he had a girlfriend so I couldn't do anything. They split up a few months ago.
We text quite a bit, just about life, and when we're together we tease each other a lot, and especially after alcohol, are very tactile and touchy-feely, in a way neither of us are with anyone else.
I'm pretty sure he feels it too, not sure if he actually *likes* me or anything though. I don't know if I *like* him but there's so much tension and chemistry there. He asked me out for a drink the other week (I think he meant as a date, not sure, we never just go for drinks alone with each other) but I chickened out. I think it's only a matter of time before something happens between us, the only reason it hasn't is because we haven't been alone.
I just don't know if it's a good idea, I love him to bits as a friend and would hate to lose that to awkwardness if it didn't work out! I don't think either of us are looking for anything serious, but I'm also not looking for just a casual throwaway fling. I've done the friends-to-more thing before, one time it's been very worth it and turned into love, another time it's totally wrecked the friendship when it turned out we were incompatible despite having stuff in common.
Last summer I started to feel differently about him, wondering what it'd be like if something 'happened'... and the chemistry has built a LOT since then, to the point where people are picking up on it. My feelings for him are on/off though, sometimes I think no we're just friends, sometimes I really have genuine feelings, but whenever we're together there's just something there and after seeing him last week, it all came back to me and I wanted him all over again.
I see him a fair amount in our circle, we never really spend any time alone together though. I went through a phase of really liking him for a couple of months but he had a girlfriend so I couldn't do anything. They split up a few months ago.
We text quite a bit, just about life, and when we're together we tease each other a lot, and especially after alcohol, are very tactile and touchy-feely, in a way neither of us are with anyone else.
I'm pretty sure he feels it too, not sure if he actually *likes* me or anything though. I don't know if I *like* him but there's so much tension and chemistry there. He asked me out for a drink the other week (I think he meant as a date, not sure, we never just go for drinks alone with each other) but I chickened out. I think it's only a matter of time before something happens between us, the only reason it hasn't is because we haven't been alone.
I just don't know if it's a good idea, I love him to bits as a friend and would hate to lose that to awkwardness if it didn't work out! I don't think either of us are looking for anything serious, but I'm also not looking for just a casual throwaway fling. I've done the friends-to-more thing before, one time it's been very worth it and turned into love, another time it's totally wrecked the friendship when it turned out we were incompatible despite having stuff in common.
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