Sorry for the long post.
My boyfriend is going to a house party up in London next week and he's staying over. I do not want to sound clingy or controlling at all but I feel a bit uncomfortable that hes staying over. He said that about 6 girls are staying over and they will all be sleeping in the lounge. He has never met any of these girls and he said its just a night of drinking games blah blah he jokingly told me that his friend who lives with the one girl (the rest are her friends) that when they get drunk they try it on with anything.
Im not fussed at all about him going to a party hes 25 he can do what he wants hes out every weekend partying/clubbing with his friends and theres girls there all the time that he meets and hangs out with its the staying over that upsets me.
I am insecure I admit I am. Ive had the past 4 weeks from hell ive hardly seen my boyfriend at all and we planned that the weekend was going to be just us. I have been in and out of hospital with my heart condition aswell as recently this week being diagnosed with depression im on a lot of medication that's making me feel I guess a bit alone and paranoid and ive actually ended up leaving university for the term as I just feel so sad all the time. I know I shouldn't expect him to stop what hes doing and should snap out of it but I cant I was so so so looking forward to the weekend we had planned I love him to bits and it was the one thing I had that made me happy I brought a new dress planned a great weekend and im just gutted hes cancelled for a party. I feel as though he just doesn't care.
Finally I suppose im upset because all the other boys girlfriends live in London so although girlfriends arnt invited to the actual house party the girls are all going at about 1/2am for a few hours then their boyfriends are going home with them whereas as I live out of London I never got invited.
Im just feeling very upset I know being ill has made me more insecure I look a state as ive been ill and these girls will be these bright bubbly party animals then theres me that's just moaning and whining I tried to speak to him about it but he said I was just controlling and had to grow up.
So in short I don't care about the party I want him to have a great time but I guess I feel a bit gutted and upset that hes staying over with these woman that he has never ever met before in the same room I just don't think its on at all but then don't know if im just being some paranoid idiot who needs to get over herself.
My boyfriend is going to a house party up in London next week and he's staying over. I do not want to sound clingy or controlling at all but I feel a bit uncomfortable that hes staying over. He said that about 6 girls are staying over and they will all be sleeping in the lounge. He has never met any of these girls and he said its just a night of drinking games blah blah he jokingly told me that his friend who lives with the one girl (the rest are her friends) that when they get drunk they try it on with anything.
Im not fussed at all about him going to a party hes 25 he can do what he wants hes out every weekend partying/clubbing with his friends and theres girls there all the time that he meets and hangs out with its the staying over that upsets me.
I am insecure I admit I am. Ive had the past 4 weeks from hell ive hardly seen my boyfriend at all and we planned that the weekend was going to be just us. I have been in and out of hospital with my heart condition aswell as recently this week being diagnosed with depression im on a lot of medication that's making me feel I guess a bit alone and paranoid and ive actually ended up leaving university for the term as I just feel so sad all the time. I know I shouldn't expect him to stop what hes doing and should snap out of it but I cant I was so so so looking forward to the weekend we had planned I love him to bits and it was the one thing I had that made me happy I brought a new dress planned a great weekend and im just gutted hes cancelled for a party. I feel as though he just doesn't care.
Finally I suppose im upset because all the other boys girlfriends live in London so although girlfriends arnt invited to the actual house party the girls are all going at about 1/2am for a few hours then their boyfriends are going home with them whereas as I live out of London I never got invited.
Im just feeling very upset I know being ill has made me more insecure I look a state as ive been ill and these girls will be these bright bubbly party animals then theres me that's just moaning and whining I tried to speak to him about it but he said I was just controlling and had to grow up.
So in short I don't care about the party I want him to have a great time but I guess I feel a bit gutted and upset that hes staying over with these woman that he has never ever met before in the same room I just don't think its on at all but then don't know if im just being some paranoid idiot who needs to get over herself.
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