I'm not very experienced at all when it comes to relationships. I entered my first one not long ago and I used to feel so secure and happy with him but I don't know why that's changed.
I asked him not long ago about making it official but even though he said he thinks of me as his girlfriend, I don't feel like I am. Because it's my first relationship, I feel as though 'labels' are quite important to help me feel more secure. I just want the whole world to know he's my boyfriend and that I'm happy but I don't like I could do that. We've been going out for over a month now but it's always been out for dinner so it still feels date-y to me. I just want to be able to do 'normal' BF/GF stuff like going to the cinema or having a night in. I want to be able to phone up last minute and ask if he wants to hang out at my place.
I'm more conscious now about the silences we have when we meet up too. I worry that we use intimacy to avoid silences. I was conscious when he only wanted to see me once this week too. He was busy this weekend but I wonder why he couldn't have seen me during the week so I'm worried he's starting to pull away. I'm worried I'm useless in bed too so he hasn't tried in a while...
I really don't know what to do... I feel so insecure and have been crying too much lately... Help me, please :(
I asked him not long ago about making it official but even though he said he thinks of me as his girlfriend, I don't feel like I am. Because it's my first relationship, I feel as though 'labels' are quite important to help me feel more secure. I just want the whole world to know he's my boyfriend and that I'm happy but I don't like I could do that. We've been going out for over a month now but it's always been out for dinner so it still feels date-y to me. I just want to be able to do 'normal' BF/GF stuff like going to the cinema or having a night in. I want to be able to phone up last minute and ask if he wants to hang out at my place.
I'm more conscious now about the silences we have when we meet up too. I worry that we use intimacy to avoid silences. I was conscious when he only wanted to see me once this week too. He was busy this weekend but I wonder why he couldn't have seen me during the week so I'm worried he's starting to pull away. I'm worried I'm useless in bed too so he hasn't tried in a while...
I really don't know what to do... I feel so insecure and have been crying too much lately... Help me, please :(
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