Hello all, another Christmas has just rolled by and for me it was nice spending it with family as usual, always good food and what not..so i enjoyed that part of it sure.
However..we now turn to facebook..and it was really nothing but depressing for me for these reasons.
My ex of about 8 years ago announced she is pregnant (yeah 8 years ago is a long time but deep down i still cared and would of got back with her..which i always thought would happen one day..stupidly...we were really close back then and have never really felt like it since)
The next thing that happened was this girl announced she was getting married (another girl i was close to some years back..really came all the way from Canada to see me one time....we planned on getting married at some point when she eventually moved here..never happened..she eventually got with other guys back in Canada..so we argued..deleted eachother a good few times on facebook...recently added back..and got engaged yesterday..something i thought me and her were going to do at some point...)
Basically i know you are all going to say to get on with my life and there is nothing i can do..possibly living in the past.
What i really think it is, is that getting married and getting pregnant effectively permanently shuts the door..where as in my mind it was probably still slightly open
Also seeing all this on facebook with people i used to be close with...im just in my chair at home on my computer, no girfriend...havent had a girlfriend for years..pretty sure no girl fancies me...so no cuddling up on Christmas Day like the majority of others on facebook i saw, no amazing announcements to broadcast by me...just me in my chair browsing the internet, watching tv and playing some games...i'm 24 by the way and it seriously makes me feel like a loser as all this is becoming more and more common while im still sitting here..seemingly not moving forward like the rest.
What do you guys think? do you feel the same? what advice can you give?
However..we now turn to facebook..and it was really nothing but depressing for me for these reasons.
My ex of about 8 years ago announced she is pregnant (yeah 8 years ago is a long time but deep down i still cared and would of got back with her..which i always thought would happen one day..stupidly...we were really close back then and have never really felt like it since)
The next thing that happened was this girl announced she was getting married (another girl i was close to some years back..really came all the way from Canada to see me one time....we planned on getting married at some point when she eventually moved here..never happened..she eventually got with other guys back in Canada..so we argued..deleted eachother a good few times on facebook...recently added back..and got engaged yesterday..something i thought me and her were going to do at some point...)
Basically i know you are all going to say to get on with my life and there is nothing i can do..possibly living in the past.
What i really think it is, is that getting married and getting pregnant effectively permanently shuts the door..where as in my mind it was probably still slightly open
Also seeing all this on facebook with people i used to be close with...im just in my chair at home on my computer, no girfriend...havent had a girlfriend for years..pretty sure no girl fancies me...so no cuddling up on Christmas Day like the majority of others on facebook i saw, no amazing announcements to broadcast by me...just me in my chair browsing the internet, watching tv and playing some games...i'm 24 by the way and it seriously makes me feel like a loser as all this is becoming more and more common while im still sitting here..seemingly not moving forward like the rest.
What do you guys think? do you feel the same? what advice can you give?
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