Hello all,
First off, this is my first post so dont be so harsh on me :) Merry Christmas !
Now...to start off, there was this particular girl whom i had a crush on (secretly) at work, we were cool buddies and all and she had a boyfriend back then. Days went by, and that boyfriend of hers got into some legal troubles, and was locked away for sometime.
She was down for as long as he was gone, as she knew nothing about all of this, and it all came to her as a complete blow. I tried slowly slipping through into her heart and being by her side, and thats what happened. Days went by and she became somehow fine. This is when i decided to confess my love to her...and sadly she rejected me. I decided to move on, with all my dismay and sadness i have managed to. This is when she came along again, and started coming closer to me:
1) I am a person who pays meticulous attention to details. I am an attention-holic, and i think over alot of things and notice really minute things.
2) i have a passion about time. My life is so organized and time-focused.
She knew all this about me, and started dropping a few strings along the way knowing i will catch them. For example: she always comes on whatsapp, and keeps her "Last Seen" time pretty close to mine, sometimes a minute before or less. She does this since almost more than a year now (which is worth mentioning that during this year, her boyfriend was released from prison and they are back in an on-off relationship, in which he is the one who leaves her, not herself. It is worth noting he doesnt love her, as my investigations revealed he has more than one girl, and each one has a purpose, in her case, it was money he is after, because he is broke and jobless, and desperate for work).
Everytime she does something that is time oriented, or very minute and i catch it (example, wearing a color i love, or showing me a hairstyle i commented before i love how she looks in), i just keep asking myself: why is she doing this ? If she already has someone (although that someone is not making her happy all the way), why is she turning to me ? Why wont she just leave me alone to move on ? Its hard to focus on forgetting her where all she does is throw such signs all the time. I even thought its one big coincidence, but after hundreds of trials, i came to a final conclusion she is doing it on PURPOSE. We even developed some sort of a language we use by time, meaning if her times are three minutes after anytime (example: 6:33...12:18) then she is upset or sad for some reason, which turns out true EVERY TIME.
One interesting incident: I happened to delete her from my blackberry work phone messenger, and i happened to find out that day she wrote a very sad piece of quote about "losing loved ones", and she had a picture of a hand-made bracelet i bought her once, that she really loved and thought it looked amazing. i took another co-worker's phone, who had her on messenger, and saw all this, out of curiosity.
The one sure thing i know about her is: that am always in her head, even though she has someone. No doubt about it.
I just need some answers to put my head into rest, as this thing is taking a significant amount of my thinking capacity (am not that free or lifeless guys, but i just think of it alot :lol3:).
Please provide me guidance, why is she doing this ?
First off, this is my first post so dont be so harsh on me :) Merry Christmas !
Now...to start off, there was this particular girl whom i had a crush on (secretly) at work, we were cool buddies and all and she had a boyfriend back then. Days went by, and that boyfriend of hers got into some legal troubles, and was locked away for sometime.
She was down for as long as he was gone, as she knew nothing about all of this, and it all came to her as a complete blow. I tried slowly slipping through into her heart and being by her side, and thats what happened. Days went by and she became somehow fine. This is when i decided to confess my love to her...and sadly she rejected me. I decided to move on, with all my dismay and sadness i have managed to. This is when she came along again, and started coming closer to me:
1) I am a person who pays meticulous attention to details. I am an attention-holic, and i think over alot of things and notice really minute things.
2) i have a passion about time. My life is so organized and time-focused.
She knew all this about me, and started dropping a few strings along the way knowing i will catch them. For example: she always comes on whatsapp, and keeps her "Last Seen" time pretty close to mine, sometimes a minute before or less. She does this since almost more than a year now (which is worth mentioning that during this year, her boyfriend was released from prison and they are back in an on-off relationship, in which he is the one who leaves her, not herself. It is worth noting he doesnt love her, as my investigations revealed he has more than one girl, and each one has a purpose, in her case, it was money he is after, because he is broke and jobless, and desperate for work).
Everytime she does something that is time oriented, or very minute and i catch it (example, wearing a color i love, or showing me a hairstyle i commented before i love how she looks in), i just keep asking myself: why is she doing this ? If she already has someone (although that someone is not making her happy all the way), why is she turning to me ? Why wont she just leave me alone to move on ? Its hard to focus on forgetting her where all she does is throw such signs all the time. I even thought its one big coincidence, but after hundreds of trials, i came to a final conclusion she is doing it on PURPOSE. We even developed some sort of a language we use by time, meaning if her times are three minutes after anytime (example: 6:33...12:18) then she is upset or sad for some reason, which turns out true EVERY TIME.
One interesting incident: I happened to delete her from my blackberry work phone messenger, and i happened to find out that day she wrote a very sad piece of quote about "losing loved ones", and she had a picture of a hand-made bracelet i bought her once, that she really loved and thought it looked amazing. i took another co-worker's phone, who had her on messenger, and saw all this, out of curiosity.
The one sure thing i know about her is: that am always in her head, even though she has someone. No doubt about it.
I just need some answers to put my head into rest, as this thing is taking a significant amount of my thinking capacity (am not that free or lifeless guys, but i just think of it alot :lol3:).
Please provide me guidance, why is she doing this ?
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