My husband is a very good man. He takes good care of me, always loves to doing things with me, likes to travel and even enjoys going cloth shopping for me because this is for me. I know that he loves me and I am the entire world to him.
He however does have low sex drive and does it only several times a year. I brought this up to him once or twice and he says he will make an effort but does not change. I asked a few times and do not want to stress him out, so I gave up.
Because this is so few and far in between, even when it happens, it is actually very boring and monotonic.
Since I gave up sex, I think I gave up being a woman too, and started gaining weight.
A few months ago, I met my ex-boyfriend. We kept respectful distance and had a chat just as good old friends. But, after I met him, I started losing weight and went back to my old physical shape. I don't think I will ever go back to that x, because x is x for a good reason, but I realize I like the passionate relationship I had with him long time ago.
I no longer genuinely smile at my husband because of affection. I see him like my brother. He sometimes asks me why I hate him.
I am almost 40 years old but am pondering walking out of this marriage. No sex, no love, and no passion. I live once and do not want to live like this.
I am just worried about how much destruction I have to my husband's life by doing this.
Please give me any thoughts... Am I stupid to consider walking away just because of this?
He however does have low sex drive and does it only several times a year. I brought this up to him once or twice and he says he will make an effort but does not change. I asked a few times and do not want to stress him out, so I gave up.
Because this is so few and far in between, even when it happens, it is actually very boring and monotonic.
Since I gave up sex, I think I gave up being a woman too, and started gaining weight.
A few months ago, I met my ex-boyfriend. We kept respectful distance and had a chat just as good old friends. But, after I met him, I started losing weight and went back to my old physical shape. I don't think I will ever go back to that x, because x is x for a good reason, but I realize I like the passionate relationship I had with him long time ago.
I no longer genuinely smile at my husband because of affection. I see him like my brother. He sometimes asks me why I hate him.
I am almost 40 years old but am pondering walking out of this marriage. No sex, no love, and no passion. I live once and do not want to live like this.
I am just worried about how much destruction I have to my husband's life by doing this.
Please give me any thoughts... Am I stupid to consider walking away just because of this?
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