I am so broken about this that I dont even know where to begin. We have been together almost 5 years, married for 5 months have a 2 1/2 year old and a baby on the way (3 months pregnant). He left his email open this weekend and I found out that he has been going on craigslist and meeting random strangers to have sex with!! Both men and woman. The woman he was hooking up with were more dominatrix type woman but included vaginal, oral and anal sex. The men were transexual men that dress like woman. He says he never did oral sex on the men and never received anal but received both oral and gave anal to the Trannys. I am disgusted on so many levels!!! He put me and the baby in danger of catching a disease!
I have never felt so many different emotions at one time in my life! I am devastated over this and cant seem to function. When I confronted him he immediately apologized and tried to explain why he has done this horrible thing. That he was molested as a child and has always had this feelings and never seek help out of fear of what people would think. That hes not gay...really could have fooled me!! That he has a sex problem and never told me about his desire to be humilated in the bedroom out of fear I would leave. That first thing Monday morning (today) he would look into a therapist and he cant loose his family and of course super apologetic!
I am pregnant and this amount of stress is more than I can bear on a normal day lead alone with a baby growing inside me. I feel like our entire relationship has been a lie. I dont even know who this man is! 5 months after our wedding really?! Men and woman oral, anal and everything else?! Then coming home and kissing my son and having sex with me knowing I am pregnant! Transexuals...sigh. I could go on and on about the issues but I dont know that I can deal with all this. Although none of the hookups were emotionally driven the level of hurt and betrayal is through the roof. I could never trust him again, and the thought of his face sickens me lead alone ever even having sex with him again.
I don't know...do I try for the sake of our family to work through this or do what I feel is what is the more logical thing and move on as a single mom of a 2 1/2 year old, pregnant and divorced after 5 months of marriage?! HELP????
I have never felt so many different emotions at one time in my life! I am devastated over this and cant seem to function. When I confronted him he immediately apologized and tried to explain why he has done this horrible thing. That he was molested as a child and has always had this feelings and never seek help out of fear of what people would think. That hes not gay...really could have fooled me!! That he has a sex problem and never told me about his desire to be humilated in the bedroom out of fear I would leave. That first thing Monday morning (today) he would look into a therapist and he cant loose his family and of course super apologetic!
I am pregnant and this amount of stress is more than I can bear on a normal day lead alone with a baby growing inside me. I feel like our entire relationship has been a lie. I dont even know who this man is! 5 months after our wedding really?! Men and woman oral, anal and everything else?! Then coming home and kissing my son and having sex with me knowing I am pregnant! Transexuals...sigh. I could go on and on about the issues but I dont know that I can deal with all this. Although none of the hookups were emotionally driven the level of hurt and betrayal is through the roof. I could never trust him again, and the thought of his face sickens me lead alone ever even having sex with him again.
I don't know...do I try for the sake of our family to work through this or do what I feel is what is the more logical thing and move on as a single mom of a 2 1/2 year old, pregnant and divorced after 5 months of marriage?! HELP????
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