My wife [28F] is asexual, I [30M] want to cuddle with other women. Should I?

I'm really confused here, so I'm hoping your thoughts and suggestions can help clear my head... I'm a 30yr old man who has been married for three years now. My wife and I are Pakistani and come from traditional Pakistani families. So no sex before marriage, and preferably no relationships either. I never had a girlfriend, although my wife had a few boyfriends (non-sexual relationships). My wife is a fantastic person, but soon after our marriage (which was arranged by our families, btw) I found out that she's asexual. I knew about asexuality because I had read about it in a magazine somewhere, but my wife wasn't even familiar with the term. After many attempts to have sex (the times we succeeded, it felt horribly one-sided) I told her that she is probably asexual, and asked her to get her hormones tested and start therapy. She started crying, trying to convince me that she's not 'defective'. To this day, she denies that she's asexual, but I'm convinced she is (I've researched extensively). She never got tested or pursued therapy. I've long since stopped asking her for sex or anything sexual. I've accepted her the way she is. I don't think she's 'defective' though, and I really love her and I know she does too, but I'm just somehow emotionally starved inside over all this. That being said I have no intentions to cheat on my wife. But I feel lonely, and sometimes I feel like I just want to hug someone - a cuddle buddy, if you will. It's something that I can't achieve with my wife due to our asexually-charged emotional baggage. But it has to be discreet - if my wife knew, she would take this as 'cheating' and have a mental breakdown. My cuddling intentions are strictly non-sexual, and I have no intentions to fall in love with anybody either. But I'm uncomfortable with the whole secrecy thing. What should I do? Please note that divorce isn't an option here - as I said, I love my wife, and in any case a divorce in our culture would pretty much wreck havoc. *TL;DR* Had an arranged marriage, wife is asexual, still love her, don't want a divorce, want a cuddle buddy in secret, but it would freak out my wife. Should I?

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