wife made a sex tape with an ex...and showed me

So, my wife and I have been married for 12 years. We have a great marriage and a hot sex life (though like everybody it goes through some ups and downs, but overall great). To spice things up in bed in recent years we've whispered some pretty racy fantasies and talked about past lovers and things...we both get turned on by it. About a month ago my wife whispered to me that she made a tape one time in college with her and her then boyfriend. She didn't have a lot of partners before me, since we met in college ourselves. She kept the tape...it was the only copy. And one night after some drinks, we put it in the VCR (which we needed to get out of storage...lol) anyway, I was extremely jealous but extremely turned on too. I can't believe I liked it as much as I did...she pleasured me while we watched and it didn't take long. She and he made three scenes in it and the camera work is pretty good. I somehow feel wrong about this...how can I like watching my wife from years back, shortly before I knew her, doing this with another guy? I have to admit, though, I can't stop watching...it's very hot and makes me sort of conflicted... Am I nuts?

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