| Hi all I have been having a rough time off late and I was looking for some advice on putting your life back on track after a fall. As a bit of background, I have had diagnosed clinical depression for three years. I see a counsellor, art therapist and a psychiatrist. One of my old tutors kissed me when he was drunk and then he was very abusive afterwards. This isn't the first time that this has happened to me. The second one still treats me like **** and the first isn't allowed to contact me. He denied he did anything wrong when I had a meeting with him and the head of my dept. but I showed that everything he had said from start to finish was inconsistent and he had been drinking for 7 hours before he made his 'move'. I had to explain to the or prof that I was almost sectioned in November and I started crying so she had to ring my parents and she keeps emailing me to check I am still alive. This meeting was on Wednesday. Since then I haven't eaten a meal, all I do is cry and suffocate on my tears. I can't sleep normal hours - I sleep from 4am-5pm. I stopped taking my antidepressants and I sit in my room d rinking whisky. I am so annoyed at myself and I hate myself for getting like this. I've neglected all my uni work for three weeks and I have had to defer my exams until August. I feel so worthless and pathetic but I need to get out of this hole I am. I am so scared I don't want to die but I just want the pain to stop. I have no friends at uni and my best friends from a levels pulled a prank on me before my exams and they were so embarrassed that they didn't speak to afterwards. I'm not that close to my family they think that I am just feeling sorry for myself and it is just a phase. Someone please help me get my life back. Thanks. (I doubt thanks is good enough to say how grateful I will be for anyone to reply to this. Please no one tell me to top myself either, I've seen enough of suicide and death to know what it does to people). Xx | |||
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