| Bit of background; in 2011 my H had an emotional A with a married girl who he knew from highschool. I was pregnant at the time with our now 20 month old twins. I found out about their A by going through his phone and saw nearly 2000 mgs/sextings and nude pics. In one of his msg, he asks her if she had ever cheated b4 and continues to tell her that he had many years ago, a ONS, and hoped that what they had was going to last...? We are back together now, been in R for a year n a half, been going to counseling since then too, but lately it's been just me going to counseling... I have been asking him questions, randomly, about the two affairs he had. It disturbs me that he can't give me an accurate month or year when he had his ONS, and when I ask him questions he gets defensive about giving answers then he provides me with 'some' answers, but says he can't remember other things... I've been feeling frustrated more than usual & Im starting to cause fights with him (I'm acting very out of character) after the fights he tries so hard to make me happy (which is WAY out of character for him) I'm confused, why is he doing this, is it out of guilt? Last night after a fight, I asked him to sleep on the lounge and while I laid in bed thinking of how we can break up amicably and have a talk the next day, he surprises me with breakfast and a rose...? I keep going through emotions and thoughts of, were over I'm not going to be able to forgive him for what he did, and thinking this isn't a healthy relationship, I'm never going to trust him etc... But I feel guilty (or something) for still wanting this relationship finished, I just don't know how to do it? Posted via Mobile Device | |||
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