Getting married.. but

We know each other for two years now but mostly long distance with little communication though emailing is constant. We're both in mid to late 30s, no baggage, no first marriage. We felt in love and decided to get married. We're getting married in a few months. But something happened and I no longer know what I feel anymore. I have the strangest reaction ever that I hardly understand it myself. Due to the lack of ways that we can communicate in real time (by phone or even chatting). That's just the circumstance. Sometimes we argued and disagreed but then I quickly forgive him and feel the love for him again because of the big picture and often be humorous and send him loving txts again. When I reached out to him and he also reached back. But the last incident, we're going through the longest silent treatment ever, it's day 4 now and I'm having a weird reaction to this. The first night I was angry of what happened but then after that, I became numb, no feeling, no anger, a little sadness, and keep thinking about ending the relationship because I don't think I want to go through the marriage trauma. I've been reading lots online about why marriage fails and how to have a successful marriage. There are many helpful insight to unknot some issues that sometime it's no ones fault, each to their own and that can be conflicting but it's shouldn't be the end of the world. I even attended some wisdom session witnessing couples overcoming marriage problems or personal differences to stay together and that was really touching.. Even after all that, I still don't feel anything... it's like a self-shutting down mechanism for me to avoid being hurt or something. I start to question if he's the right one for me. Anyone have gone through this before, please help put some sense back into me. I haven't reached back to him not because that I want to play the silent treatment with him but because if I do talk, it would be negative and about breaking up. So I'm afraid to say anything. And of course if I suggest breaking up, it better be something I believe in but not some moment of anger. I've also feel that it's ok to be with out him too. It was like I tried to prepare myself for the idea of separation. I also don't think that it's normal for guys to hold on to silent treatments for so long, but apparently it's not uncommon. However, I don't react well to this because I feel the longer it goes, the more negative I become and the more I want to end the relationship. Perhaps this is just my own issue and hope someone can shed some light on me that I can realize my problem or perhaps he is not the one for me and my gut instinct is trying to tell me something...

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