Hey,
So throughout the years I've gone through a predictable cycle of: find a girl very attractive, build up a strong crush on them, want to be in a relationship with them, try to be, fail/succeed and it eventually ends, mope around for a bit, repeat.
But the latest girl doesn't fit this pattern. I think she's amazing for all sorts of reasons, and I am quite loved up over her, but I don't want a relationship - I want her to be as happy as possible. I don't think she'd want a relationship with me, and I wouldn't want to upset her by making a big reveal of feelings and making it seem like our friendship was a farce because I fancied her (which it isn't, we were friends before I developed feelings), nor do I want to make her feel guilty, bad or awkward for rejecting me. I think I'm a bit too sensible for her, and she's a bit over-social and over-talkative for me.
Thus, I don't want a relationship, I want to see her happy, and it wouldn't hurt to see her find a guy who makes her happy in a relationship. I make her happy as best as I can as a friend, and enjoy our time together because she is good fun to be around.
I'd happily pay for her to do things and go places she'd enjoy, with or without me, I'd give up my day at a moment's notice if she needed help, and I'd be genuinely happy if she found a decent guy.
The issue is that I still feel in love with her after quite a while, and that's preventing me from moving on and finding someone I'd try to 'court'. Anyone else been in a similar situation or has a solution for how to move on?
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