I'm about 5'5" and I've always been quite insecure about my height. When I was younger I was far more confident because at that time I didn't know how much importance girls placed on height. In general I think I'm a datable person - I'm nice, intelligent, have decent looks, take care of my body, have a good job lined up etc but I feel like most girls tend to overlook me (pun intended) because I'm not tall enough for them.
This makes it really hard for me to find the confidence to ever try it on with anyone. I'm a very independent person and although I've had a couple of relationships when I was much younger (wouldn't really call them 'proper relationships' though) I've never had one. I have been one one date in my life but I've never kissed a girl or had sex. There are times I've been out and I definitely could have done these things, but I lack the confidence plus I'm not the kind of person to enjoy kissing or having sex with a stranger/ acquaintance.
Sometimes I feel if I was taller I would literally have it all. Well, not exactly, but would be much more datable. This makes me quite angry, because my height is the one thing I can't change. I have fell for a couple of girls over the past 4 years, but they are 'out of my league' literally because of my height. It is really upsetting that I know these girls really like me as a person but I don't meet their 'height criteria'. I almost feel if I tried showing my feelings for a girl I liked I would almost disgust them because of my height, like I feel they would think 'ew, why would I ever want to go out with someone as small as you'.
It's like I've built up a kind of psychological disorder over this. I really want to get over my height anxiety because it does stop me from showing my feelings for anyone. I don't know how to do this though! I know there are some girls who don't mind about height but I also know there are plenty who do. One way to get over this would be to throw myself in the deep end... I guess I'm looking for an easier answer?
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